I listen to this song, over and over again.
There is only one thing in my mind right now.
I really understand how difficult it is. I really understand.
When should we say goodbye?
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GoodBye
- Air Supply
I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more
I can feel your heart and I simpathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life
I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore
I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say
goodbye.
Sometimes, you just do not know whether what your belief is correct, or you are doing the right thing, or making the right choice.
The feeling is horrible. As if, all this while the people on the earth are so believe in newton’s laws, because that explains gravity. That explains why the apples are falling down from tree. But what will happen if one day, a scientist stands out and tells the world: “Hey you know what, newton is wrong!” Some people might resist, some people just ignore, and some people might choose to accept the new reality. I think the whole world will get crazy. It gives a big puzzle to the whole world: if newton is wrong, then what is causing the apples to fall down from the tree?
Just like relationship. You were so believe that there is a mutual magnetism thingy exists in between two of you. That’s why it pulls both of you together. You share things happened in your life with him, you are willing to sacrifice for him, you are ready to give more. Just because you thought you love each other. But what if one day you found out that, it isn’t the mutual magnetism that is putting you two together. It doesn’t exist at all. If it doesn’t exist, then what is causing both of you to move forward? That confidence he used to have, where does it come from? Isn’t this horrible?
I think it is. And it is giving me insomnia.
You told me that we will figure it out one day, we will see how it goes, and we will see what the next step is when the time comes. But you doesn’t seem like you are working on it. Do you know that, I do not feel angry, sad or disappointed. But I feel scared, because I don’t see the way. I feel so sightless.
Hi everyone, please meet darling ‘Money’… my latest crochet work… Oops, sorry. I mean my new pet.
Get caught! You ah… ask u to work but u watch TVB drama.
Ask him to study LVDS document for me, but he fell asleep.
那天
你说如果可以，你要陪我一辈子
你说如果可以，你要给我一个生活
那一刻，我的心突然满了起来
好像被什么东西装满了
让我有一种“这样子就够了”的感觉
那一天，我对‘满足’有了不一样的领悟
And this, the chic weekender luggage bag. It is a surprise gift, as I never expect he will get me another version of the weekender luggage bag. Although it is pink (and a bit too pinky) but I think it is quite cool with the gold color zip. The bag is super spacious, ideal for me to travel back to KL during weekend. But it is slightly heavier than I expect.
My mom wants it when I showed it to her. Of coz I wouldn't give it to you, mom. Pink color is too cute for you. Ngek ngek ngek ngek ngek.... (devilish smile)
It is 0509 again. I am getting old. Sien…
But it is a good excuse to get presents and free meals… haha. Actually it is a good reason for friends gathering to have dinner + chit chat. Thanks guys, I love the cake and ice cream!
And a very expensive lunch at The C. Club @ Pavilion.
It makes me think of those days in Cyberia when I was still studying in MMU. Ah shiong, the chef of Cyberia A2-1-10 who always cooks nice food for us, taught us how to make seaweed roll sushi, and we were so addicted on it! I miss u guys…
I am silly and weak, and I hate for being silly and weak. I really hate myself sometimes. I need to do something to fix the problem. I need help. I really need help.
Sometimes it is hard to believe in what your heart is saying. I thought I am a kind person with kind heart (or I should say I am trying to be) but I am not. I am a very selfish, jealous and over-sensitive person instead. I guess maybe the more I care a person, the more I hope the other person will put the same dedication like me. I wish I can do something to make myself perfect person. At least a girl with understanding and mature thinking. But if anything goes wrong or out of track, even though it is a small tiny little thing, these negative feelings will be invoked. I know this is very bad. And I feel very bad to have this kind of negative feelings. But I can’t help. I know I should not care so much.
I try to control, and do not let the selfish Yin Mei dominant my body. I have done a good job previously. But sometimes I am not that strong.
Whenever I feel myself useless, I feel like crying.
I like this, artwork from Peyton Sawyer.
This is so stylish. But can you imagine this bag belongs to a 59 years old uncle?
Nowadays, my dad has a new habit when he travels to somewhere. He will buy some batches from that place and then ask my mom to sew it on his backpack. So next time when he carries this bag around, his friends will say something like: “Oh, you have been to Nepal!” This reminds me those days when we were still a small kid, we always ask dad and mom to get us some ultraman/sailor moon/mickey mouse key chains or stickers to deco our school bag and pencil box. Just want to make it looks ‘stylish’ and different from our friends. So our friends will get jealous. My dad is a kid now. He is so proud of this bag.
By the way, I remember this bag used to be my sister’s when she was studying in college. Since when this belongs to him and some more he can ‘redesign’ the bag? I think he just took it from her without permission. Dad is always right huh?
Anyway, it’s 20th of June. Dear daddy and mommy, Happy Birthday to both of you. (Yeah, both of them share the same birth date. Romantic huh?) I always believe that it is not easy to find a life partner. You can have 10 to 100 criterias to search for an ideal wife or husband. But you need only one criteria to make the marriage last long, which is LOVE.
In logic circuits world, most of the engineers do not like the signal to stay in unknown state. This is the time when a pull-up or pull-down resistor needed, to make sure the signal settle at ‘1’ or ‘0’.
Sometimes, life is a maze. I do not know what I want. I think I am in high-impedance mode now.
I need a pull-up or pull-down resistor.
Why people always leave.
Why things always change.
Why fairy tales always lie.
Why there is no 'forever' in this world.
Why people like to take things for granted.
Why I can be easily upset by someone.
Why god always take things away from me, especially things that I treasured.
Why it is so difficult to find a nice place to stay in Penang.
Why it is so hard to get the yoga class that suit me.
Why my rabbits always die.
Why I am always alone.
Why it is so hard to find the right companion.
Why tears always drop without my notice.
One-man-show 本来就不是一件容易的事。一支麦克风、一瓶水、一个舞台，然后就什么也没有了。在这样子的条件之下，要娱乐一大群观众两个小时，少一点功力都做不到。谈娱乐圈的事、谈生活、谈人生态度、谈生活哲理。主题要能引起共鸣但又不能太过大众化，不能太深入却又不能太蜻蜓点水，要保持跟观众的互动却又得控制住场面，要懂得从身边的事物切入主题才能迎合观众的胃口。这实在太难了。
就是因为不简单，而偏偏黄子华又能做到恰到好处。所以让这位将近 50 岁的痞子大叔还乱有魅力的。
惊喜不多，但我还是很高兴。在有生之年可以观赏到黄子华的栋笃笑，那是无可形容的满足。‘死而无憾’咯 ^^
想念被束缚的日子
但是呆在你的身边时
我又暗地里策划下一次的出走
感情的经营
往往标签着无法预知的风险
我曾经很害怕
有一天我们彼此回头会看不见对方
但是现在我却想出去透透气
Life is full of surprises and sadness. I need to find a way to record every moment that we have been through.
So I make this, the ‘C’est la vie’.
I am going to feed this, with love(s).
“Hey, no matter how the story ends, I have no regrets.”
It’s life, isn’t?
I want to get all these things for myself, step-by-step.
6. GUCCI classic tote
I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry.
Although I do not know what’s wrong, but it’s definitely my fault.
Today, one part of me has gone to the heaven.
Rest in peace
23/Jan/2010- 12.31pm
A sincere advice to all the landlords, if you ever own a house/apartment/condo/whatever, never rent it to university students. They will never take good care of it and will do whatever they like.
Here is good example when a group of silly MMU students (and I am one of them) staying together.
Incident happened when we were staying in A2-1-10 Cyberia block A. We just wanted to find out who is the tallest and who is the shortest in the house, so as a future engineer, we took measurements. And this is how we measure…
- A confession to our landlord -
Don’t get mad, okay?
Relax..
you should feel lucky,
because we drew with pencil,
not ink pen.
- End of confession -
and therefore I’ve cried for 6 times.
and it is very hard too, to take him away.
