Sometimes it is hard to believe in what your heart is saying. I thought I am a kind person with kind heart (or I should say I am trying to be) but I am not. I am a very selfish, jealous and over-sensitive person instead. I guess maybe the more I care a person, the more I hope the other person will put the same dedication like me. I wish I can do something to make myself perfect person. At least a girl with understanding and mature thinking. But if anything goes wrong or out of track, even though it is a small tiny little thing, these negative feelings will be invoked. I know this is very bad. And I feel very bad to have this kind of negative feelings. But I can’t help. I know I should not care so much.
I try to control, and do not let the selfish Yin Mei dominant my body. I have done a good job previously. But sometimes I am not that strong.
Whenever I feel myself useless, I feel like crying.
I like this, artwork from Peyton Sawyer.
This is so stylish. But can you imagine this bag belongs to a 59 years old uncle?
Nowadays, my dad has a new habit when he travels to somewhere. He will buy some batches from that place and then ask my mom to sew it on his backpack. So next time when he carries this bag around, his friends will say something like: “Oh, you have been to Nepal!” This reminds me those days when we were still a small kid, we always ask dad and mom to get us some ultraman/sailor moon/mickey mouse key chains or stickers to deco our school bag and pencil box. Just want to make it looks ‘stylish’ and different from our friends. So our friends will get jealous. My dad is a kid now. He is so proud of this bag.
By the way, I remember this bag used to be my sister’s when she was studying in college. Since when this belongs to him and some more he can ‘redesign’ the bag? I think he just took it from her without permission. Dad is always right huh?
Anyway, it’s 20th of June. Dear daddy and mommy, Happy Birthday to both of you. (Yeah, both of them share the same birth date. Romantic huh?) I always believe that it is not easy to find a life partner. You can have 10 to 100 criterias to search for an ideal wife or husband. But you need only one criteria to make the marriage last long, which is LOVE.
In logic circuits world, most of the engineers do not like the signal to stay in unknown state. This is the time when a pull-up or pull-down resistor needed, to make sure the signal settle at ‘1’ or ‘0’.
Sometimes, life is a maze. I do not know what I want. I think I am in high-impedance mode now.
I need a pull-up or pull-down resistor.
