五月憩园

矛盾

2012-01-21T00:05:00.000+08:00

我应该是个很矛盾的人

有时是很有理想的人，有时是个得过且过的人

有时是个很随和的人，有时是个很蛮不讲理很主观的人

开心有时，失落有时

积极有时，偷懒有时

精明有时，糊涂有时

我到底是哪一种人？

放生

2012-01-11T02:24:00.000+08:00

看着我眼前不知所措的这个人，我忽然明白不是每个问题都有解决的方法。不断地钻牛角尖好像只是在问题的原地里踏步。逃避又好像很没骨气。唯一的出路，难道就是放下？

看着我眼前不知所措的这个人，我明白，我们的问题没有解决的方法。不是他无能，而是问题的解决方法根本都不存在。连我自己也没有信心，我怎么可以要求他创造奇迹。

看着我眼前不知所措的这个人，除了叹息，还有什么我们可以做的呢？

深呼吸，我要前进。

我好笨，我为什么要花将近一年的时间来看透这件事情。

Everything will be ok in the end, if it is not ok, that means it not the end yet.

我终于释怀。

大日子

2011-12-22T19:16:00.000+08:00

看到很多朋友的facebook status开始有很多冬至的祝福留言，还有朋友watsapp的短讯，我发现又快一年了。大概傍晚的时候，我expect的电话来了。

“Arloo, ah 媚啊？”
“Hello? Ah poh 啊？”
“Harllo?? ”
“婆，我听到。我是ah 媚啊”
“ah 媚啊，你听到没有？”
“我听到，我听到。你吃饱liao mah？”
“我还没有啦，很早啦。他们都还没有冲完凉。”
“oh，你打给我做mo?”
“哈哈，没有啦。大日子嘛，你知道没有？哈哈”
“我知道，冬至嘛对不对。”
“是lo是lo，做mo你又懂的？哈哈”
“我当然懂啦。”
“大日子咯，婆婆想到你咯。哈哈。有没有出去吃好料？”

我中午毕业后一直在外生活，但是每到中秋、冬至这些大日子老佛爷都会打个电话给在外的孙子孙女，从不间断。我很庆幸，老佛爷还有力气给我打个电话。

好催泪的电话。简单又窝心。

对我来说，大日子的意义应该是这样吧。

不酷的我，不哭

2011-11-14T01:01:00.000+08:00

我以为我已经痊愈
但原来我只是一直在逃避

逃避
其实也不过是用另一种方式在伤害自己

我又回到阴暗处
自舔伤口
自我怜惜
一点都不酷

我讨厌不酷的自己
我至少要做到
如何让不酷的我，不哭

In time

2011-11-02T22:46:00.000+08:00

In this movie, when you die, people will not say that ‘she is dead’. They will say ‘she is timed out.’

好奇妙的一个说法。所谓死亡，就是你拥有的时间用完了。就是那么简单。

In this movie, everyone carries a life clock. This life clock tells how much time you left, before you are timed out. It keeps counting down, every second. You can earn, steal, borrow or even gamble to win more time for yourself. Just like money.

有点像真实的世界不是吗。我们都知道，我们拥有的时间一直都在倒数着。但是最不同的是，我们的life clock是看不到的。你不会知道家里的父母亲还剩下多少时间，你还有多少时间去孝顺。你不会知道你恨的人还有多久会消失在你眼前。你不会知道你爱的人还能陪在你身边多久。你不会知道自己还有多少时间去和你care的人相处，或者想想那个你恨的人值不值得你用剩余的时间去恨他。

如果你只剩下一天的时间，你会珍惜那一天，还是会用那一天的时间去争取更多的时间？

3 stars for Yin Mei!

2011-10-31T22:45:00.004+08:00

Time flies. People starts wearing those Halloween costume, November is coming.
It's close to a year.

Am I getting better? I don't know.

But I know I am getting stronger.

3 stars for myself!

~May, 2011~

Milpitas, San Jose

Trying hard to score 3-stars

For angry birds and for myself

Thanks to my sifu

Who help me to get through all those obstacles

The world of misunderstanding

2011-10-28T22:48:00.000+08:00

I don't like to be misunderstood.
I hate when I can't find the right word to explain myself.
I hate when I have tried my best but still, you do not know what I mean.

I also hate when I caused inconvenience to you unintentionally, put you in a bad bad situation. And yet, I do not know how to help. I am sorry.

不值得

2011-10-16T11:38:00.000+08:00

好想离家出走
我躲在箱子里太久了
Let me get out here

我应该早一点醒觉，这一切其实都不值得

:(

2011-10-16T11:26:00.000+08:00

To make sure that I am doing the right thing, I typed "How can I get rid of sadness" in Google. And then I got this page.

"We all have bad days, but don't let them ruin how you feel about yourself and others. Bad is what we assume that something bad is going to be the result, but, believe,whatever bad happened to us will be healed by Time."

Seems like it is a well-known facts that time can cure. Alright, I will continue to let time pass like how it should.

如果时间能治疗所有事情

时间，你能不要能跳快一点

好伟大的梦想

2011-10-11T12:44:00.000+08:00

I browsed through the youtube that day, when I was really bored. I found a video recorded from ‘China got talent’. There was a 12 years old Mongolian boy sings in the competition. I wasn’t quite impressed by his voice because I can't really understand the lyrics. But I was stunned, when he told the judges about his dream：

我要发明一种墨水，把那墨水在地上一点，全世界就会变成绿草

I want to invent a kind of ink that just need a drop to drop on the ground, the whole world will cover with green grass

He lost his parents when he was 8. And still, he came out with this statement when talk about his dream in life. At that moment, I feel embarrassing for being an adult. I have tons of complaints about my job and my life, and I don't contribute enough to help the community. I know I should appreciate for being myself, as I am in a better position compare to those unfortunates at the other side of the world.

活该

2011-10-04T23:26:00.001+08:00

一个月又一个月的过
时间并没有让我淡忘什么
我的呼吸反而变得越来越沉重

我该如何走出这个阴影

严重的是
都已经走到了这个地步了
我还不觉的后悔

这时候
除了“活该”
我也不知道该对自己说些什么

我该如何走出这个阴影
我该如何走出这个阴影
我该如何走出这个阴影
我该如何走出这个阴影
我该如何走出这个阴影
我该如何走出这个阴影

怎么办

救命

到底追求什么？

2011-10-02T19:02:00.000+08:00

长相的厮守
还是短暂的温柔？

前者先苦后甜
后者先甜后苦

都是一样的

死性不改的三个人

2011-10-02T17:33:00.000+08:00

以前我们在red box最爱点的一首歌 -- 死性不改
那时侯还真是百唱不厌啊，呵呵

以前大学时，又爱玩又爱美
现在还是一样，还真是死性不改

快要是我们相识十周年了
人生有多少个友谊可以让我们挥霍十年的呢

死性不改的我们，一定要过得很好哦

p/s: Please forgive my skill again and the blue color stool. I was feeling tired to stand :p

What hurt the most

2011-09-29T21:21:00.000+08:00

It's not the goodbye that hurts

But the flashbacks that follow

I wish I am a super girl

2011-09-27T13:30:00.000+08:00

There are more than two close friends tell me recently, that I always over-stress myself and try to absorb everything, even though that is beyond my capability and bandwidth.

I agree. I think I am. Hoping myself as a super girl since I was young.

My teacher nominated me as the class monitor during my standard-1 in primary school, because I was in the 1st place during the kindergarten final exam. She explained to me the role of a class monitor and I consulted a few adults at that time (including dad, mom, grandma and my piano teacher) to understand what a class monitor should do. Based on my survey, seems like a class monitor has great responsibility and I need make sure my friends behave really well as a good student! So, I was in big stress at that time. Dad and mom noticed this when I cried in the school because my friend (forgot her name already) refuse to do and submit her homework. After that, they came to school and asked teacher to demote me, because they wanted to save me out of the stressful role.

During my brother’s first day in primary school, I was in standard-2 and so worry that he might not know how to buy himself a plate of wantan mee in the canteen. To me, it was really difficult and confusing during my first day in primary school. The auntie will yell at you and if that was me, I will feel panic and keep telling myself that ‘no yin mei, you shouldn’t cry in front of your friends’. I was not sure if brother can handle this kind of pressure or not. And the canteen floor is really slippery; you can easily fall down and make your uniform dirty. That will cause another round of pressure when you get back home and questioned by grandma. I was so stress and worry about him.

When I was in secondary school, I worry about my exams. Dad and mom told me that I am the smartest among the children in my family and I can study very well. That means I need to score more As la right? I think so. No choice lo, have to be more hardworking. PMR and SPM are nightmares. I had migraine frequently during the secondary school time.

Since the day I had my first ABRSM exam for grade one piano exam, my piano teacher told me that I have talent in music. And I can play the music very well (she said). That means I have to score better in the next exam la right? I think so. So I need to be more hardworking in piano practice, but I hate it! I was so worry that dad and mom (or other family members) will think sending me to piano class is a waste of money and that is going to make them feel really sad. Because our family isn’t that rich. So, no choice la. I had to bear with those painful moments, when teacher hits my fingers with her ruler because I play the wrong notes.

Now I am working in the industry. I still don’t think that I know how to handle stress and relax myself. I worry about my parents’ health condition and I want them to retire and enjoy life. I worry about my cousins, they are growing up and having teenage issues. I worry about grandma, she is getting weaker and weaker. I worry about ten. He is ambitious and I need to make sure I give necessary advices so that he won’t be too ambitious. I worry about Yin Keng, don’t know when can she meet her Mr. right. I worry about my close friends. I hope they are not having a lot of issues in their life. I worry about my career, not sure if I am doing the right thing and making the right move.

I wish I am a super girl. A super girl who is capable and can handle everything really well.

我愿意

2011-09-22T00:08:00.000+08:00

走音，还需要多加练习

wait till I can play this song smoothly, then I will dedicate this song to you

我真的愿意，什么都愿意为你

So hard to hold back

2011-09-21T22:09:00.000+08:00

Such a beautiful song. I love it so much I don't know why.

***********************************************

Just A Kiss

~Lady Antebellum~

Lyin' here with you so close to me

It's hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe

Caught up in this moment

Caught up in your smile

I've never opened up to anyone

So hard to hold back when I'm holding you in my arms

We don't need to rush this

Let's just take this slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

Just a touch in the fire burning so bright

And I don't want to mess this thing up

I don't want to push too far

Just a shot in the dark that you just might

Be the one I've been waiting for my whole life

So baby I'm alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time

It will only bring us closer to the love we wanna find

It's never felt so real, no it's never felt so right

Give me up again

2011-09-09T00:45:00.000+08:00

"I can give up anything that I have. Really one!" I said.

You keep silence, and look at me, and touch my face, and then smile.

All this while, I thought that is a sign of acknowledgement and mutual agreement.

But I just noticed, it is not that way.

You never promise anything, you never said that you are willing to give up things for me.

And now, you gave me up.
Why?

I try to cry, but I couldn't.

I think I am running out of tears. I have been giving enough tears for whatever you have said and you have done for the pass one year.

I really don't understand.

I don't understand.

I don't understand.

I don't understand.

I really really do not understand.

Attitude . 态度 .

2011-08-25T00:06:00.003+08:00

When I listen to the song of the new TVB movie - ghetto justice, I fall in love with the theme song
When I found out the singers are hanjin 陈奂仁 and MC Jin 欧阳靖， I fall in love with them

I like them, for some reasons.
Besides the unique music, lyrics, and rap
I think they are showing off their attitude as well

And I love their attitude!

Just kidding...

2011-08-24T23:33:00.000+08:00

First, I ask for money
God send me the Altera hiring offer letter

2nd, I ask for friendship
God send me a facebook account

3rd, I ask for concern, attention and advises
God send me the bus tickets to my hometown

4th, I ask for dream
God said: refer to item #1

Finally I ask for forever love
God send you
and a calender
showing today's date: 1st of April

You must be kidding me man

Going crazy, soon

2011-08-24T12:37:00.000+08:00

回忆过去
痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来
拨动我心跳

There is not going to have a good ending for this story, we know this for sure
So please stay away from me, please

超人不会飞

2011-08-21T15:39:00.000+08:00

在我很小很小的时候，我家有个超人，这个超人不会飞。
因为他太肥了。

但是超人很厉害，什么都会。灯泡，电器，家私，厕所，什么都会修理。
超人很厉害，每个早上我们醒来，妈妈还在房间化妆的时候，他已经变了一桌子的早餐给我们吃。
超人很厉害，我什么也瞒不过他。我到底有没有做好功课，有没有练琴，有没有睡午觉，有没有跟弟弟妹妹打架，有没有讲骗话，在学校有没有乱乱买零食吃，他统统都了如指掌，好像他有天眼那样监视着我的一举一动。

我从小就觉得超人很像个哲学家。不是因为他的学历（他才Form 3 or Form 5 毕业），而是他常常跟我讲的道理都会让我深思很久才领悟到。很厉害。

超人常常跟我说，知识很重要。他的年代，劳力可以带来稳定的收入，但是我未来的年代，只有知识才可以让我在社会立足。超人说，我要好好念书。把书念好，不是为了他或是为了谁，而是为我自己。后来我成了我这个家族第一个考进大学念书的孩子，而且我还是个女儿。我不知道他有没有觉得我很厉害，因为照他的道理来讲，我其实是在为我自己的未来努力而不是为了谁。但是我从小就很想超越他，很想比他更厉害。我很想让他觉得，我这个女儿很厉害。在我大学毕业典礼那天，老爸依然没有开口称赞我。但是在我领了毕业证书从领奖台走下来时，我看见他在家长席站了起来，远远的对着我笑。

老爸像很多典型的爸爸一样，明明心里很开心很感动，但是就是爱面子爱扮cool。

今天的超人，六十岁了。头发开始白了，耳朵开始不太灵光，脚步也越来越缓慢。但是超人在我心中依然是很厉害。

超人用了将近三十年的时间来爱我，爱这个家。
我也会用我今生今世的时间来爱老爸，和这个家。

超人不会飞，没有关系。
像老爸那样的超人，不会飞也很有型。

我心目中的超人不需要会飞，
只要他像老爸那样厉害就可以了。

In the end, who stays?

2011-08-21T14:40:00.000+08:00

When I listen to this
I cried, badly.

Man can sweet talk to you in so many ways
But in the end, who can really stay besides you
hold your hand and walk until the end?

不用担心，有faiko在

2011-08-17T18:05:00.000+08:00

那是个下着小雨，有点寒冷的凌晨
开着车轻轻松松的往Los Angeles的方向出发
半途想找个地方填填肚子，就用GPS找看附近的咖啡馆
结果我们就被带到Los Banos这个小镇的Starbucks
那是个距离原来的行程还蛮远的地方。

“你sure吗？Quite 远一下woh。”
“可以la，不用担心，有faiko在。”

~2011 五月。下着小雨的早晨。~

朴素的 Los Banos

我记得那杯Mocha和Blueberry Scones的味道。温温的，香香的。

我记得从freeway要转进Los Banos小镇时，我们经过的那片田园。一望无际，美美的。

我记得我们就这样赖在Starbucks的沙发上，静静的交谈，静静地听着Jazz，静静的看着窗外，看着正要准备日出作息的人们，还有那只赖在栏杆处的小狗。

这是整个路程，最温暖最美的时候
远远超过Los Angeles 的 Disneyland 和 Universal Studio

有faiko在，那是让我很安心的事。

Miss you, hate you too

2011-08-16T00:30:00.002+08:00

What will you do when you miss someone.

Misscall him/her?

Text him/her?

Check his/her facebook, try to find out what he/she is doing lately?

Keep checking his/her msn status if he/she is online?
Listen to the songs, revise the precious moments in your mind again and again?

I miss you.

But I hate you too.

This is giving me a bad bad mood.

~ Almost the end of May, 2011 ~

One night in Milpitas, San Jose

Someone was always beside me when I was in this kind of bad mood

Special thanks to that 'someone' :)

Nothing is worse than knowing you're holding back

2011-08-15T20:17:00.000+08:00

Terrified

~ by Katharine McPhee ~

**************************************

You set it again, my heart's in motion

Every word feels like a shooting star

I'm at the edge of my emotions

Watching the shadows burning in the dark

And I'm in love

And I'm terrified

For the first time and the last time

In my only life

And this could be good

It's already better than that

And nothing's worse

Than knowing you're holding back

I only said it 'cause I mean it

I only mean 'cause it's true

So don't you doubt what I've been dreaming

'Cause it fills me up and holds me close whenever I'm without you

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I don’t need a Tiffanny

2011-08-12T13:54:00.000+08:00

Tiffanny is almost every girls’ dream. I can’t deny that I would like to have one too. But marriage is not the matter of Tiffany or diamond carat. What matters is the person that you are going to live with for the rest of your life.

If the person is the right person for me, I don’t need a Tiffanny.
If I can’t find the right person, I don’t need a Tiffanny.

I know I am getting old, and at time goes by I am losing the qualification to say that “I don’t care!” for marriage. But I think if the person is not right, there is no point.

Maybe, Someday, We will figure all this out

2011-08-12T13:50:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I wonder if life really worth it

But when I look at you face

I know it is.

What am I doing lately...

2011-08-12T13:49:00.000+08:00

Notice that I don’t really update my blog recently. Simply because I’m buzy :)
1# Crochet cute mittens and hat for my nephew!

My nephew is coming to this wonderful world in March next year. Everyone in the family is soooo excited. Poor little nephew hasn’t get his name yet, mainly because his dad’s surname is ‘Say’ – 谢. This is a very unique surname; usually it will be converted to ‘Sia’, ‘Cheah’, ‘Tsay’… When Pik Yee asks for opinion for her baby’s name, she always ended up getting funny names like ‘Say Cheese’ ‘Say Hello’ ‘Say Sorry’ from us. Poor thing! Haha

2# Fullfill my childhood dream

I know I mentioned that I hate Piano, cuz it brought some not-so-good childhood memory. But I do hope that I know how to play violin, I can’t explain why. I remembered I have a checklist for my 2008 New Year resolution, and one of them is to learn violin. It’s already 2010 December right now. One day, I was doing house-keeping for my gmail, and out of sudden I notice my last email conversation with the music studio was on 2010 January. Seems like I have decided which studio to go and which class to take at that time. I can’t believe that I can drag the decision for 12 months! So the next day lunch time, without any hesitation I to go to ATM, cash out few hundreds, drive to the studio, and register for a violin class.

I just want to make sure that when I die one day, I can tell myself: “It’s ok, at least u know how to play violin…”

3# Maintain my blogshop!

Secret Lover of coz! It is fun, and easy. I do not feel stressful at all by doing all these fun things and trying to grab customers. We have stocked up few more items from victoria secret.

4# Work, of coz 

Works accumulate day by day, never-ending. But I am glad that it is never-ending, that means I am learning something new everyday and oppurtunities come in everyday. Give me more, I can do it!

5# Shopping sprreeeee

I got a new watch, a new pair of white shoes, a new handbag, a new bracelet, a new dinner white dress, a new denim one-piece dress, a new scaft, a new eye pallete from too-faced… feeling guilty right now. My purse hates me, I know.

6# Handle and control my emotions

I am frustrated. I am disappointed. I am sad. I am depress. I am upset. I do not know what do you want. And you tell me that you also do not know what do you want. I really do not know what I am I suppose to do right now.

Vibrato...

2011-08-10T23:22:00.000+08:00

Still remember I mentioned that when I was young and still learning piano, I had a miserable time as I don't understand why I don't look as elegant as my piano teacher? I think that is because I don't have long hair those days. For no reason, dad just doesn't like me to keep long hair when I was still in school.

Now I have long hair. So I think it's time to do something that I want since childhood. I always wanted to learn violin! I am still improving my skill, so that I can play my fav songs smoothly.

Sometimes, it's not easy to get to do what you love. Some people just doesn't have the choice. But I have, and I feel really grateful that I get to do what I love to do.

I think I can play a better and smoother song one day. I am not quiet there yet, but I will be there one day :)

Love and forgiveness

2011-08-02T22:57:00.000+08:00

It is very easy to put something into your heart
and it is very difficult to take it away

It is very easy to love someone
and it is very difficult to forgive

如果时间是可以治疗所有事情
那时间可不可以跳快一点

My bad habits

2011-08-02T22:41:00.000+08:00

The first thing the instructor told us during the "7 habits for highly effective people" training class today is to get rid of bad habits.

If you are a shopaholic with heavy credit card debts, time to break the cards now.
If you are a smoker, time to put away the cigarette now.

My bad habit is I tend to think of you when I feel alone. Even when there is someone beside me or I am in the center of crowd. Whenever I feel alone, I will think of you. I feel painful in my heart. Very painful.

I still don't understand. What makes you think that I am strong enough to take this?

NO, you are wrong. I couldn't take this. Not at all.

How can I get rid of this bad habit? I don't know.

I have been trying so hard. At least for the past 7 months. I swear.

Alcohol is the only remedy, I guess.

At least it works for insomnia.

一首歌的时间

2011-08-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

DVD播完了，片尾曲开始响起
字幕也慢慢升上来了

你忽然从我地身后抱着我，
我吓了一跳
“你要干吗？”

“我还没有想到。”

“你到底要怎样？”

“都讲还没有想到咯。等这首歌播完我再跟你讲”

我不明白
那首歌已经播完很久
那几乎是六个月前的事情了
你还是搞不清楚你想怎样

可以告诉我吗？
别在折磨我了

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作詞 : 周杰倫　作曲 : 周杰倫　監製 : 周杰倫

雨淋濕了天空毀得很講究
妳說妳不懂為何在這時牽手
我曬乾了沉默悔得很衝動
就算這是做錯也只是怕錯過

在一起叫夢～
分開了叫痛～
是不是說沒有做完的夢最痛～
迷路的後果～
我能承受這最後的出口在愛過了才有

能不能給我一首歌的時間
緊緊的把那擁抱變成永遠
在我的懷裡妳不用害怕失眠
哦如果妳想忘記我也能失憶

能不能給我一首歌的時間
把故事聽到最後才說再見
妳送我的眼淚讓它留在雨天
哦越過妳劃的線我定了勇氣的終點

哦妳說我不該不該不該在這時候說了我愛妳
要怎麼證明我沒有說謊的力氣哦請告訴我
暫停算不算放棄我只有一天的回憶

自由的味道

2011-06-20T08:43:00.000+08:00

这是一次没有计划，但是很有预谋的出走。

除了报平安以外，我也不太联络谁。

没有牵挂的日子真好玩。
睡醒后，要去什么地方，拿个地图和GPS，把车油添满就出发了。
管不着隔天有没有上班，我晚上还是可以喝个烂醉。
就这个样子任性了几个星期，真的很爽！
偶而做个不负责任的人，也不错

著名的葡萄酒乡，美丽又无人烟的Lake Henessey，舒服的阳光，
我就这样在甲板上小睡了片刻。

自由的味道，夹杂了Napa Valley的阳光和红酒的香醇，很温暖

~ 慑于California, 美丽而纯朴Napa Valley ~

在我说愿意之前

2011-05-26T17:58:00.000+08:00

最近李心洁出了新书: 在我说愿意之前

书名很酷! 还没看，因为太贵了不舍得买 =.= 谁要送我啊..?

每个人的心里，因该有个"在我说愿意之前"的checklist。

在我说愿意之前

我要去希腊，我要去爱琴海

我要知道我是不是真的爱你

我要知道你到底知不知道你是不是真的爱我

好复杂

我爱故我在 ~陶子

2011-04-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

我爱故我在 ~陶子~

女人必读，男人更加要看

一定要推荐的一本书

表现了现代女人不再需要自舔伤口的那份勇气

又可杠起多种女性角色所需的温柔

温柔又辛辣，让我流泪了好几回。

Please, go away.

2011-02-20T13:25:00.000+08:00

I almost forget
I have to make sure that I am holding my own key of happiness
I won’t let you hurt my feelings again
I won’t

At this moment
I just want you to stay away from me

迷路

2011-02-19T19:43:00.000+08:00

一个很没安全感的人，在旅行前一定会像要做好万二分的准备，要万无一失。今天去哪里、怎样去、吃些什么、看些什么、买些什么，都一定要事前计划好。
一个很重视自在感、生活刺激的人，什么都不喜欢先计划好。今天去哪里、怎样去、吃些什么、看些什么、买些什么？睡醒才讲。够力。

所以和石头旅行了这么多次，我每次都会给他气死。

于是这次在快要出发前几个星期，我们一人让一步，达成一个协议。计划一个旅程大纲，但是不要需要太详细。譬如说，哪一天要去南怡岛，哪一天要滑雪之类的。但是不太需要知道怎样去，吃什么，看什么之类的。

结果我在这个旅程得到很多预料不到的惊喜

我开始学会享受
其实有时候迷路也是路途的一部分

正如人生。

~摄于韩国。零下十七度的南怡岛~

~Jan 2011~

致命伤

2011-02-19T09:40:00.000+08:00

去新加坡绕了一圈，跑了一趟韩国
我还是沉淀不了我的心情
我还是忘不了那一晚你的沉默不语

真正的致命伤，是你并没有开口留我

When should we say good bye?

2010-11-16T00:14:00.003+08:00

I listen to this song, over and over again.
There is only one thing in my mind right now.

I really understand how difficult it is. I really understand.
When should we say goodbye?

****************************************
GoodBye
- Air Supply

I can see the pain living in your eyes
And I know how hard you try
You deserve to have much more

I can feel your heart and I simpathize
And I'll never criticize
All you've ever meant to my life

I don't want to let you down
I don't want to lead you on
i don't want to hold you back
From where you might belong
You would never ask me why
My heart is so disguised
I just can't live a lie anymore

I would rather hurt myself
Than to ever make you cry
There's nothing left to try
Though it's gonna hurt us both
There's no other way than to say

goodbye.

What will happen if Newton is wrong?

2010-10-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, you just do not know whether what your belief is correct, or you are doing the right thing, or making the right choice.

The feeling is horrible. As if, all this while the people on the earth are so believe in newton’s laws, because that explains gravity. That explains why the apples are falling down from tree. But what will happen if one day, a scientist stands out and tells the world: “Hey you know what, newton is wrong!” Some people might resist, some people just ignore, and some people might choose to accept the new reality. I think the whole world will get crazy. It gives a big puzzle to the whole world: if newton is wrong, then what is causing the apples to fall down from the tree?

Just like relationship. You were so believe that there is a mutual magnetism thingy exists in between two of you. That’s why it pulls both of you together. You share things happened in your life with him, you are willing to sacrifice for him, you are ready to give more. Just because you thought you love each other. But what if one day you found out that, it isn’t the mutual magnetism that is putting you two together. It doesn’t exist at all. If it doesn’t exist, then what is causing both of you to move forward? That confidence he used to have, where does it come from? Isn’t this horrible?

I think it is. And it is giving me insomnia.

You told me that we will figure it out one day, we will see how it goes, and we will see what the next step is when the time comes. But you doesn’t seem like you are working on it. Do you know that, I do not feel angry, sad or disappointed. But I feel scared, because I don’t see the way. I feel so sightless.

Money, the monkey

2010-08-24T23:35:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone, please meet darling ‘Money’… my latest crochet work… Oops, sorry. I mean my new pet.

Money is working hard on behalf on me.

Get caught! You ah… ask u to work but u watch TVB drama.

Ask him to study LVDS document for me, but he fell asleep.

More than enough

2010-08-16T09:12:00.002+08:00

那天
你说如果可以，你要陪我一辈子
你说如果可以，你要给我一个生活

那一刻，我的心突然满了起来
好像被什么东西装满了
让我有一种“这样子就够了”的感觉

那一天，我对‘满足’有了不一样的领悟

A secret from Victoria!

2010-08-14T23:24:00.000+08:00

Victoria Secret just opened their very first VS store in Asia, located @ Sentosa Singapore. So I asked for his help to get the black logo weekender luggage bag from the store if there is any. But who knows they don't sell it in the Singpore store :( WHY ah....

In the end, he got this for me… The ultimate make-up kit! The all-in-one makeup kit with various colors of eye shadow, lip gloss, lip stick, face powder, blusher, mascara and even eye liner too. My new favorite *blink blink* I think it is very useful for travel. Especially when I travel back to KL, so I dont have to carry my whole set of makeup gadgets.

And this, the chic weekender luggage bag. It is a surprise gift, as I never expect he will get me another version of the weekender luggage bag. Although it is pink (and a bit too pinky) but I think it is quite cool with the gold color zip. The bag is super spacious, ideal for me to travel back to KL during weekend. But it is slightly heavier than I expect.

My mom wants it when I showed it to her. Of coz I wouldn't give it to you, mom. Pink color is too cute for you. Ngek ngek ngek ngek ngek.... (devilish smile)

How did I spend my 26th birthday

2010-07-05T13:17:00.001+08:00

It is 0509 again. I am getting old. Sien…

But it is a good excuse to get presents and free meals… haha. Actually it is a good reason for friends gathering to have dinner + chit chat. Thanks guys, I love the cake and ice cream!

And a very expensive lunch at The C. Club @ Pavilion.

I do think that simple is good. I love cheesecake.

A wonderful birthday present from my sweet-hearts -- Jia Yee, Yvonne and Alicia. I just do not know what to say to express my appreciation. Sexie and Nottie are cute rabbits. But unfortunately they were given to the wrong person. I am truly sorry.

Sushi making

2010-07-05T13:01:00.000+08:00

This is what you need…

TA-TA!! And this is how it turns out. Not bad huh?

It makes me think of those days in Cyberia when I was still studying in MMU. Ah shiong, the chef of Cyberia A2-1-10 who always cooks nice food for us, taught us how to make seaweed roll sushi, and we were so addicted on it! I miss u guys…

They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth

2010-07-04T15:25:00.000+08:00

I am silly and weak, and I hate for being silly and weak. I really hate myself sometimes. I need to do something to fix the problem. I need help. I really need help.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

But I don't care what they say

I'm in love with you

They try to pull me away

But they don't know the truth

My heart's crippled by the vein

That I keep on closing

You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

I keep bleeding

I keep, keep bleeding love

Keep bleeding

Keep, keep bleeding love

You cut me open

Leona Lewis ~ Bleeding Love

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I am not Okay

2010-06-25T13:17:00.001+08:00

Sometimes it is hard to believe in what your heart is saying. I thought I am a kind person with kind heart (or I should say I am trying to be) but I am not. I am a very selfish, jealous and over-sensitive person instead. I guess maybe the more I care a person, the more I hope the other person will put the same dedication like me. I wish I can do something to make myself perfect person. At least a girl with understanding and mature thinking. But if anything goes wrong or out of track, even though it is a small tiny little thing, these negative feelings will be invoked. I know this is very bad. And I feel very bad to have this kind of negative feelings. But I can’t help. I know I should not care so much.
I try to control, and do not let the selfish Yin Mei dominant my body. I have done a good job previously. But sometimes I am not that strong.

Whenever I feel myself useless, I feel like crying.

I like this, artwork from Peyton Sawyer.

My dad is a kid

2010-06-22T17:35:00.000+08:00

This is so stylish. But can you imagine this bag belongs to a 59 years old uncle?

Nowadays, my dad has a new habit when he travels to somewhere. He will buy some batches from that place and then ask my mom to sew it on his backpack. So next time when he carries this bag around, his friends will say something like: “Oh, you have been to Nepal!” This reminds me those days when we were still a small kid, we always ask dad and mom to get us some ultraman/sailor moon/mickey mouse key chains or stickers to deco our school bag and pencil box. Just want to make it looks ‘stylish’ and different from our friends. So our friends will get jealous. My dad is a kid now. He is so proud of this bag.

By the way, I remember this bag used to be my sister’s when she was studying in college. Since when this belongs to him and some more he can ‘redesign’ the bag? I think he just took it from her without permission. Dad is always right huh?

Anyway, it’s 20th of June. Dear daddy and mommy, Happy Birthday to both of you. (Yeah, both of them share the same birth date. Romantic huh?) I always believe that it is not easy to find a life partner. You can have 10 to 100 criterias to search for an ideal wife or husband. But you need only one criteria to make the marriage last long, which is LOVE.

Unknown state

2010-06-12T18:23:00.000+08:00

In logic circuits world, most of the engineers do not like the signal to stay in unknown state. This is the time when a pull-up or pull-down resistor needed, to make sure the signal settle at ‘1’ or ‘0’.

Sometimes, life is a maze. I do not know what I want. I think I am in high-impedance mode now.

I need a pull-up or pull-down resistor.

W.H.Y.

2010-04-12T18:57:00.002+08:00

Why people always leave.
Why things always change.
Why fairy tales always lie.
Why there is no 'forever' in this world.
Why people like to take things for granted.
Why I can be easily upset by someone.
Why god always take things away from me, especially things that I treasured.
Why it is so difficult to find a nice place to stay in Penang.
Why it is so hard to get the yoga class that suit me.
Why my rabbits always die.
Why I am always alone.
Why it is so hard to find the right companion.

Why tears always drop without my notice.

Beautiful Mess

2010-04-11T21:20:00.003+08:00

有些事情虽然很乱, 但还是很令人着迷

有些故事走到最后不见得有好结果, 但还是很美

**************************************************

"A Beautiful Mess"

- Jason Mraz -

You've got the best of both worlds

You're the kind of girl who can take down a man,

And lift him back up again

You are strong but you're needy,

Humble but you're greedy

And based on your body language,

And shoddy cursive I've been reading

Your style is quite selective,

though your mind is rather reckless

Well I guess it just suggests

that this is just what happiness is

Hey, what a beautiful mess this is

It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you write

Kind of turn themselves into knives

And don't mind my nerve you could call it fiction

But I like being submerged in your contradictions dear

Cause here we are, here we are

Although you were biased I love your advice

Your comebacks they're quick

And probably have to do with your insecurities

There's no shame in being crazy,

Depending on how you take these

Words I'm paraphrasing this relationship we're staging

And what a beautiful mess, yes it is

It's like picking up trash in dresses

Well it kind of hurts when the kind of words you say

Kind of turn themselves into blades

And the kind and courteous is a life I've heard

But it's nice to say that we played in the dirt

Cause here, here we are, Here we are

Here we are

We're still here

What a beautiful mess, this is

It's like taking a guess when the only answer is "Yes"

Through, timeless words and priceless pictures

We'll fly like birds not of this earth

And tides they turn and hearts disfigure

But that's no concern when we're wounded together

And we, tore our dresses and stained our shirts

But its nice today.

Oh the way it was so worth it.

醉

2010-04-08T22:22:00.002+08:00

酒精迷人的地方
就是在于它很难喝

我要喝醉
要喝到烂醉

我并不需要永远

2010-03-21T22:29:00.002+08:00

*********************

我最幸福的事牵着你的日子

一段爱从开始直至分开我们都对彼此诚实

最幸福的事对那片海用力大喊永远的样子

想得起的事那天和你傻笑着认识

是最幸福的事

-- 最幸福的事 - 梁文音

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The complication

2010-03-10T23:28:00.004+08:00

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LOVE

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黄子华，太厉害了

2010-03-07T23:54:00.007+08:00

One-man-show 本来就不是一件容易的事。一支麦克风、一瓶水、一个舞台，然后就什么也没有了。在这样子的条件之下，要娱乐一大群观众两个小时，少一点功力都做不到。谈娱乐圈的事、谈生活、谈人生态度、谈生活哲理。主题要能引起共鸣但又不能太过大众化，不能太深入却又不能太蜻蜓点水，要保持跟观众的互动却又得控制住场面，要懂得从身边的事物切入主题才能迎合观众的胃口。这实在太难了。

就是因为不简单，而偏偏黄子华又能做到恰到好处。所以让这位将近 50 岁的痞子大叔还乱有魅力的。

有人说，黄子华不再像以前那么精彩了。可能是吧。但是在这两个小时里面，我跟着所有观众一起喊：“回水！除裤！”喊得很过瘾。

惊喜不多，但我还是很高兴。在有生之年可以观赏到黄子华的栋笃笑，那是无可形容的满足。‘死而无憾’咯 ^^

矛盾

2010-03-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

我陶醉在距离赐予我的自由里
想念被束缚的日子
但是呆在你的身边时
我又暗地里策划下一次的出走

感情的经营
往往标签着无法预知的风险
我曾经很害怕
有一天我们彼此回头会看不见对方

但是现在我却想出去透透气

The weekend project

2010-03-01T09:33:00.002+08:00

Life is full of surprises and sadness. I need to find a way to record every moment that we have been through.

So I make this, the ‘C’est la vie’.
I am going to feed this, with love(s).

“Hey, no matter how the story ends, I have no regrets.”
It’s life, isn’t?

~C’est la vie~

你到底懂不懂

2010-02-23T00:13:00.001+08:00

爱情之所以为爱情-梁静茹

作词:黄婷

作曲:周谷淳

买cd 把你的声音丢在角落

看电影到结局总是配角的错

你要的故事让你去说

我要的生活我好好过

写日记写不出是谁的感受

夜空里每个人占有一个星座

你到底懂不懂我只要一点温热的触碰

你到底懂不懂有些话并不是一定要说

你总说爱情之所以为爱情是用来挥霍

你总是漫不在乎当我看著自己的稀薄

你编织的感觉难以捉摸

你比我的梦境还困惑

我看见爱情之所以为爱情谁都在挥霍

我想的天长地久也许只是时间的荒谬

我沉迷的感动与你不同

我的了解让我自由

The materialistic me

2010-01-27T13:52:00.009+08:00

I want to get all these things for myself, step-by-step.

1. Dior Addict

2. New bling-bling watch

3. KOSE Sekkisei facial set

4. New swimwear…. Or sexy bikini?

5. Victoria Secret SleepWear

6. GUCCI classic tote

And more.

Believe me, this is a never-ending list… (there go my salaries...)

Part of me

2010-01-23T22:13:00.002+08:00

I am so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry.

Although I do not know what’s wrong, but it’s definitely my fault.
Today, one part of me has gone to the heaven.

-Tart Tart-
Rest in peace
23/Jan/2010- 12.31pm

I miss Cyberia A2-1-10

2010-01-17T21:58:00.004+08:00

A sincere advice to all the landlords, if you ever own a house/apartment/condo/whatever, never rent it to university students. They will never take good care of it and will do whatever they like.

Here is good example when a group of silly MMU students (and I am one of them) staying together.

Incident happened when we were staying in A2-1-10 Cyberia block A. We just wanted to find out who is the tallest and who is the shortest in the house, so as a future engineer, we took measurements. And this is how we measure…

- A confession to our landlord -

Don’t get mad, okay?
Relax..
you should feel lucky,
because we drew with pencil,
not ink pen.

- End of confession -

So near, yet so far

2010-01-17T21:29:00.005+08:00

Gerry sent 6 letters to Holly,
and therefore I’ve cried for 6 times.

It is very hard to allow a person to live in your heart,
and it is very hard too, to take him away.

P.S. I love you

NaRaYa, for everyone

2010-01-16T13:22:00.006+08:00

Begged Chui Yee and Pik Yee to grab me a Naraya bag from Chatuchak during their Bangkok trip last year. I will definitely be there one day to do the shopping myself. I swear!

Oh man… I fell in love with the ribbon and the fabric.
I love NaRaYa ^_^

Check it out: http://www.naraya.com/

I hate this

2010-01-15T22:10:00.002+08:00

God, I am so sorry to say that I hate you that day. I didn’t mean to.

I don’t want to ruin the game, break the rules and mess it up. Can you please take back all these out-of-track thingy, cuz I want to get back to the right track. The right track that it used to be.

Time to clean up the mess, maybe.
But it is so painful to clean it up.
It is killing me softly.

God, please help me.

Direction

2010-01-10T12:22:00.002+08:00

I hate god.

I am swimming towards this direction for years. But he just informed me that I was heading to the wrong direction. Should I switch to the correct way, or continue?

Sh*t , he should have told me earlier.

I think he is just joking with me. I guess.

Crazy friends

2010-01-05T23:23:00.017+08:00

Dear Eng Tau, Lai Yee, Ah Shiong and Meow,

Sorry to tell you that friendship is forever, so no matter where you go and where you live now, I will definitely come to you! Don’t even try to run away from me. Stay tune, ngek ngek.

I want you to be happy. So please promise me, that you will live life to the fullest.

I just want to tell you, and you, and you, and you. All of you.
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I love you.

Sincerely,
Mei

<摄于2009年圣诞节，美丽又繁华的狮城>

害怕

2009-12-21T21:01:00.002+08:00

作词：深白色
作曲：深白色
演唱：孙燕姿

忘

我没有很努力要自己去遗忘

那些和日记一起收藏的过往

孤单在思绪之中变得很漫长

想

我没有很刻意让自己不去想

那些和照片静止的模样

我学着坚强

坚强到不用学着不想

学着遗忘

还是害怕夜深人静时总想起你

还是害怕的不经意听见你的消息

然而当爱已经沉淀得太清晰

当拥有已经是失去

就勇敢的放弃

还是害怕一个人时就很难忘记

还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定

然而当爱最后的出口是分离

我会这么相信

走下去

Control me?

2009-12-14T20:52:00.000+08:00

If you try to control me
Then, mutual trust doesn’t exist anymore

If mutual trust doesn’t exist between us
I will not love you anymore

脱轨

2009-12-12T22:27:00.007+08:00

很想找个人分享
那种Party狂欢后
一群人的互动
酒精带来的空虚
还有残留下来的悸动

酒和烟的味道
一种界于控制跟失控之间的矛盾
那一刻，我还以为生活都快要脱轨了

有时候，我真的享受距离带给我的自由

小叮铛

2009-12-02T00:18:00.001+08:00

我忘了关车灯。

待我跟朋友吃完晚餐，回到停车场时才发现的。车子的电完了，怎样start也start不到。感谢老天爷派来了三位小叮铛，帮我解决了问题。

我真的觉得他们很像小叮铛。

谢啦 :)

p/s: 辉瑜、泽豪、炳强，看在这件事的份上，我会考虑以后对你们好一点的。

人海茫茫

2009-11-30T22:54:00.003+08:00

三年前我们第一次分离，他被派到槟城去industrial training而我得留在PJ做我的industrial training。那一年的圣诞节，我请假搭巴士到槟城去找他。在陌生的Sg. Nibong车站里，我看到那架熟悉的车泊在一旁。车里的他等到几乎要睡着了。我敲敲车门，他赶紧打开车，睁着朦忪的双眼，看着我笑笑说：“Hello~~~”

两年前我们第二次分离，他留在KL发展，而我却决定离乡背井到槟城工作。三不五时他就搭巴士来槟城找我。现在轮到他在Sg. Nibong车站，背着个背包，像个痞子那样靠着柱子等我来载他。待我一到，就跳上车，嬉皮笑脸地说：“Hello~~~”

那次去巴厘岛，他当时身在印尼工作所以没和我们一起出发。我们约好在巴厘机场见面。在巴厘的机场，我们一出境就看到他倚在栏杆处跟巴厘的几个导游在闲聊。趁他不为意，我快步走上他面前，拽一拽他的肚子。他缩了一下，转头看着我，笑笑说：“Hello~~~”

之前趁他还在印尼工作，我飞去印尼找他。在雅加达的机场，我走出机场门口，在远处的他朝我走来，左手拿着一瓶‘Teh Botol’在吸喝着，右手举起来死命的挥着。还是那副嬉皮笑脸的嘴脸：“Hello~~~”

在香港热闹的旺角夜市，你要去Giodarno看衣服，我却要去SaSa买化妆品。我们决定分头行事，但是我忘了带电话，所以彼此约好逛十分钟后在十字路口等。我选化妆品选到入迷，忘了时间。待我赶到十字路口时，看不到他，急死了。我不敢到处乱走，但是站在那里干等又越等越着急。在旺角的十字路口，很无助。不久，有人在身后拍一拍我的肩膀。转回头看，我还是看到他那副欠打的嘴脸对着我说：“Hello~~~”

我只能说，人海之中能找到那个你熟悉的身影，那是很安心的事。

~ 我们要一起，走遍这个世界 ~

<摄于 18.10.2009 香港佐敦地铁车站>

Read

2009-11-28T10:04:00.005+08:00

在大众书局的清仓大减价时买的书，三本翻译小说才RM18 ！OMG...

飞-ing about 爱、生命与感动 -- 朴光洙著

数字城堡 Digital Fortress -- Dan Brown 著

Away 远离 -- Amy Bloom 著

有好一阵子没时间好好阅读了。都怪自己看书太随兴，爱看看这本、看看那本，所以堆积了一堆看到一半的书 :P

My sister’s keeper -- Jodi Picoult 著

Wish you were here -- Phillipa Ashley 著

Falling out of Fashion -- Karen Yampolsky 著

Tangled up in you -- Rachel Gibson 著

购物狂纽约血拼记 (Shopaholic Aboard) -- Sophie Kinsella 著

一公升眼泪 -- 木藤亚也著

不能停止的世界地图 -- 连上贺著

你听见花开的声音吗？-- Lynda Field 著

果皮晚餐 -- 林琇琬著

这些书，够我看上一段日子了。

7-11和微波炉的魔法

2009-11-24T22:29:00.009+08:00

八达通卡还有余额怎么办呢

请放心
在香港不会发生有钱没地方花的事

选了几样冷冻食物

用微波炉的一点点魔法

就变成了美味的

碗仔翅咖喱鱼蛋虾饺烧卖

7-11的速食宵夜
可让他乐开怀了

< 摄于 18.10.2009 凌晨>
离开香港的前一个晚上

地上的星光

2009-11-24T22:13:00.011+08:00

繁华城市高处仰望

其实就是一点一点的灯火而已
像洒落在地上的星光
在这片星海人显得渺小
烦恼更加微不足道

香港这城市真的好美

<摄于 18.10.2009 美丽的太平山顶 >

选择题

2009-11-10T23:19:00.001+08:00

人生很短，要活得_____？

(a) 精彩
(b) 无悔
(c) 心安
(d) 轻松
(e) 有意义

What is your priority?
我只是觉得，能够做着自己喜欢的事，应该没什么遗憾了吧。

The Sweet Escape – 欲望城市

2009-11-08T17:04:00.049+08:00

我一直很憧憬香港茶餐厅的鸳鸯、奶茶、菠萝包，还有所谓的港式早餐。以前常常在‘Kim Gary’喝鸳鸯、奶茶时我在想，真正道地的港式奶茶应该会比这个好喝吧。现在才知道我的无知，还有‘Kim Gary’的认真。原来，是一样的！

我欣赏香港一个地方就是交通很方便，方向和路牌的指示都很清楚。基本上只要你不是文盲、带足够的现金、拿张地图、穿上舒服的鞋子，那你在香港就天下无敌了。今天的行程是去大屿山。在地图上，大屿山其实离九龙很远。但是搭地铁，再转个车就到了。

我们搭二十五分钟的缆车到大屿山的昂平市集。全程这个可爱的小女孩就是那样的盯着我，我也不知道为什么。难道我长得很像食物？

昂平市集就是很‘游客’的地方，要去看大佛就一定会经过这里。人多，商店多。但是我尝到很好吃的冰糖葫芦，也很开心啦。

可能因为槟城极乐寺也有个很大尊的观音，所以并没有觉得很震撼。但是这个‘心经简林’满特别，经文都刻在石柱上，傲视着整个大屿山。

山脚下吃着冰冷的山水豆腐，加一点砂糖，无与伦比的美味。有时候，美食可以很简单。

街边的‘咖喱鱼蛋’，为什么可以那么弹口？

我们回到了山脚下的昂平缆车站，CityGate outlet mall就在这，像魔鬼那样吸引着像我这样的shopaholic。这里是香港各种品牌的outlet集中点，Levis’、Citychain、DKNY、GUESS、MNG、Esprit、Armani Exchange。难怪有人说，香港是个很诱惑很物质的地方，因为在这里很容易沦陷。

买够了，钱也花得七七八八。肚子才觉得饿。来McD的目的就只为了尝尝马来西亚没有的猪柳包。这里的麦当劳除了快餐，还有一个McCafe角落卖下午茶的甜点和咖啡。很认真哦。

另一个很让我期待的景点，就是维多利亚港星光大道的‘Symphony of lights’。Yeah！我摸到梁朝伟的手掌…………印。

搭天星小轮到中环，随便逛逛。

饿了就找到这间‘翠华餐厅’，解决晚餐。The unexpected thing is always perfect。美味的一餐。

我们的目的地 --‘兰桂坊’。

想找个地方喝杯东西，但是今天没什么心情喝酒精。在兰桂坊溜达，发现了这间很多人都推荐的‘许留山’。嘿嘿，吃芒果甜品咯。

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（在缆车里那个小女孩一直‘啤’着我）
She said:：“（小小声）喂，做么她一直看着我的？”
He said：“Har？谁？”
She said:：“这个 girl 啦。是不是我的样子像lollipop。嘿嘿（自恋）”
He said：“错，是叉烧。她好象比较想要吃鸡腿。”

(-_-)
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The Sweet Escape – 小姐，哩个地球仲要转架 !

2009-10-24T14:05:00.079+08:00

基本上，香港有两种人。一种是赶时间的人，另一种是很赶时间的人。几乎每条街上的人都好象很赶着去另一个地方、还是赶着完成什么事来拯救地球似的，走路、吃东西、讲话的拍子都快我们两倍，就连电梯也转得超快。简直是个没有耐心的城市。

不管是搭地铁还是吃早餐，都会令我精神紧张。因为大家都很赶时间，要么你就跟上他们的步伐，那就是走路走快点、吃东西吃快点、讲话也要讲快一点。不然的话，就会发生像我这种经历。

我们在佐敦站的地铁刚买了八达通卡，刷了卡就跟着人群‘赶’去搭扶手电梯到下层区等地铁。扶手电梯转得很快，我好不容易站稳赶紧靠左边站，好让那些‘很赶时间的人’在右边穿梭。谁知道才站稳两秒钟，我身后有个男生的声音，像背后灵似的在我耳边说：“小姐，哩个地球仲要转架。”那一刻我其实不是很懂他的意思，但是他突然在我耳边讲话真的吓我一跳。我往后看，才发现我身后排着一个小队伍，全都是‘很赶时间的人’。我才知道原来香港跟马来西亚是倒反的。在香港搭扶手电梯时‘赶时间的人’应该要靠右边站，而左边呢就留给那种‘很赶时间的人’走。明白这个道理后，我赶紧靠右边站然后再慢慢思考那个男生的话。原来，他想讲的是：“靓妹，唔好阻住个地球转啦。”

但是香港还是有悠闲的地方。我们来到了中坏这家陆羽茶室‘饮早茶’。尽管不是周末，还是挤满了人。很多样子像将近要退休的Uncle Auntie聚在这里聊天叹茶。这里的侍应生都是穿唐装的Uncle，而卖点心的Auntie都是捧着个大托盘装着点心，一桌一桌的问：“好靓的烧卖，净笼来吃下咧。”

叫了几笼点心，又烧卖、虾饺、云腿三丝、鸡球大包、灌汤饺。就这样子吃了将近一百块马币！

吃饱了，就赶快去海洋公园啊，还等什么？！？！？

热气球初体验。

我叫他写下他的愿望，他就给我画了一只龟。气死人。

这家餐厅卖的不只是日本食物，还有美丽的岚湾风景。

好诡异又好有美感的水母。

适逢万圣节，整个海洋公园都有新的游戏但只在傍晚五点到午夜十二点才开放。我们因为早上玩了一整天太累，没力气再玩了。错过了，很遗憾。为了补偿我的遗憾，买了这个海洋公园在万圣节推出的纪念品。

晚餐就在太平馆解决。我是在网上查到这个地方的，所以就照着网上介绍的那样点了这里的瑞士鸡翼，干炒牛河，还有超大个的‘排球’梳乎厘！！

我一个人吃完，是不是很厉害？就这样又吃了将近一百块马币了。

晚上没事做，就到旺角逛逛咯。

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在热气球升得很高的时候，刚好吹风搞到整个气球摇摇晃晃得很恐怖。
He said：“你不要大惊小怪的喊好不好，隔壁的小孩子都厉害过你。”
She said:：“很恐怖嘛。”
He said：“哪里有恐怖，一点rasa都没有。”
She said:：“你不是人，你是坏人。”*****************************************************************

The Sweet Escape - Let's go!

2009-10-21T23:01:00.034+08:00

Yeah!! 石头在半年前订的酒店和机票是时候兑现了。他可是在我们要出发去香港的前几天才从PNG飞回来马来西亚。说实话我真的好几个月没看到他了，所以特别期待这次的旅行。

看着云海，我的脑海里一直播着Gwen Stefani的 “The Sweet Escape”这首歌。

一到澳门我们就赶紧找地图。把行李寄放在码头，买了傍晚七点去香港九龙的船票后还有一点时间, 当然要到处逛逛咯。

我们就这样没事乱逛，被这档卖‘葡挞’的店吸引，买了两个来填填肚子。

真的很没有目的随便乱走，发现澳门多的就是娱乐场所。

肚子饿了，在一条街的后巷发现这家‘九记甜品’，点了一碗牛腩面和一碗鱼皮角粉吃。原来就只是云吞面加不一样的料而已。但是这两碗云吞面就二十块马币了，好贵。

坐船到香港九龙，出了码头后就忙着找酒店的方向。我们的酒店在佐敦的庙街隔壁，但是我们不懂方向石头又不肯向路人问路，结果当然是迷路咯。拖着行李走到脚都痛了，才能够在一个很热心的香港人的带领之下终于找到了我们的酒店。（Cheh，到最后还不是要问路）酒店就在庙街隔壁，楼下又有很多卖吃的档口，很热闹咧。Checkin 酒店后就迫不及待冲凉到楼下逛逛。

这个雪糕车卖的富豪雪糕很滑很香。

石头嘴馋，说要吃宵夜。在庙街随便找个档口，叫了个酱油炒面和炒蚬。一边吸收这些高卡路里的美食、一边感受庙街的热闹，这一刻才真正觉得自己真的来到香港了。

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( 在寻找酒店的途中)
He said：“好像是前面转左… eh 不是不是，应该是转右。等下等下… 走中间那条隧道应该就到吴松街了...”
She said:：“到底酒店在吴松街的哪里？”
He said：“不知道。”
She said:：“很好，那我们去问问人看要怎样走。”
He said：“不用不用，我应该知道在哪里，我们再走前去看看。”
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可怜的我

2009-10-11T23:06:00.020+08:00

通常在周末回家，又一个不变的定律就是在星期日的清晨我都会被吵醒，然后很不情愿的跟着两个老人家去Hiking。是不是很可怜？美丽的周末我却无法睡到日晒三竿，然太阳晒到我自然醒。真命苦… 其实，能够跟着两个老人家去爬山是很快乐的事情。一来又可以逼我这种懒人运动，二来就证明了爸妈还有爬山的力气，身体健康得很。

今天来到一个他们最近才发现的爬山圣地，在Semenyih的Notingham附近的‘茅草山’。将近一个小时才爬到山顶，人很多很挤。可能因为这地方最近报纸有介绍的关系，很多人都慕名而来，为的就是这个很难在城市看到的东西，那就是一览无际的风景。一看就知道为什么这里叫‘茅草山’，很简单，因为到处都是‘茅草’。

老爸跟老妈是第二次来这里，听他们说这一次爬上这座山的山顶其实还有一个目的，那就是要完成他们心里的一件‘人生乐事’。

老爸很沾沾自喜，因为这么人山人海的山顶上可以找到一个这么strategic的风水位来完成他们所谓的‘人生乐事’。到底什么是他们所谓的‘人生乐事’？

其实他们所谓的‘人生乐事’，其实就是一边欣赏这个一览无际的风景、一边吹风、一边喝他们最爱的白咖啡，再加上两片‘煎包’那就完美了。‘知足’这个道理他们从小就灌输我们，那也是他们的life philosophy。

妹妹从英国回来，家人和亲戚要为她‘洗尘’上酒楼吃饭，我因为要坐车回槟城而‘走宝’。是不是可怜？被丢弃在KL Central等朋友pick up我，我的晚餐就是Dunkin Donuts，而他们就大鱼大肉。全部都是坏人来的… 坏人！坏人！坏人！

嘿嘿，但是不用紧。因为我有这个，妹妹从英国带回来的手信。不要问我Arsenal有什么球员或者是我崇拜哪一个球员，因为我根本不懂。原谅我，不懂足球是女生的专利 =P

寻找白咖啡

2009-09-22T19:40:00.051+08:00

趁这次假期，我和表姐决定带几个老人家（爸妈和几个阿姨）去Sg. Klah @ Sungkai游山玩水（做孝顺女）。Sg. Klah这里最出名的就是热泉水。用这种很热很热的泉水，浸浸双脚可以消除疲劳，祛风湿等，反正就是养生啦… 所以老人家特别喜欢来这里。（我跟表姐的职责其实是当司机，载他们来的！）

热水是从泉眼导入这几个人造湖，所以可以区分不同热度的池。还有用河卵石搭成的‘石春路’Reflexology Walking Path。

爸，你是时候减肥了。

没有骗你，泉水真的很热。热得可以煮鸡蛋！这个小湖就是特地给游客带鸡蛋来煮的。

人很多很多，整个泳池都挤满人。

我们的brunch…

老人家都在自得其乐，我一个人好闷，只好无聊的自拍。帽子是偷妹妹的。

来到这次一日游的重头戏（我觉得），那就是怡保旧街场的白咖啡！这间‘南香’就是著名连锁咖啡馆Old Town的Home Town。

我以为这就应该是怡保No. 1的白咖啡，但是表姐说：“NoNoNo!!!”原来‘南香’对面的‘新源隆’才是她心里的No. 1白咖啡。

‘新源隆’里挤满了白咖啡的Fans，找不到座位是很平常的事。跟我们搭坐同一张桌子的是一个住在怡保的uncle，他说他是‘新源隆’的常客，每天都来两次。早上跟下午来杯浓浓的白咖啡已经是他生活的一部分，而且是很重要的部分。他说‘南香’的白咖啡略甜，‘新源隆’白咖啡比较浓味。Uncle没有骗我，咖啡味真的很浓，进口时很香滑，然后有一点点Roast的味道留在喉咙。但美中不足的就是煮咖啡水不够热。我没有喝过‘南香’的白咖啡，但是如果用Old Town的白咖啡来比较的话，‘新源隆’就是我心里的No. 1。那你心里的No. 1是什么？

Kopitiam的Kopi，最佳拍档永远都是烤面包。这是很多人心里一直都不变的原则。

那几个老人家在附近买东西买傻了，我被丢弃在怡保的街头。

Dayo Wong, 黄子华

2009-09-10T00:08:00.003+08:00

很奇怪，不晓得为什么我最近很迷他。可能是因为最近的“绝代商骄”，让我突然感兴趣去挖回他以前的栋笃笑来看。他讲话实在太有型了！好酷！

后来上网google一下，才发现他今年是个49岁的Uncle了… Oh Shit! 而且，原来他是香港栋笃笑的鼻祖。

Some info to share regarding 栋笃笑… (source from baidu)

" 栋笃笑即英文的 [Stand-up Comedy]，香港演员黄子华于1990年从西方引进入华人社会的新表演艺术。但当时的中文并没有[Stand-up Comedy] 的任何译名，最后黄子华改之成栋笃笑。随后林海峰在其表演则称之为是但噏（广东话为 [随便] 的意思），两者皆为英文 [ Stand-up] 的译名。在香港，最早以类似形式表演而知命的是许冠文和黄韵诗；但首先将之以单一节目表演（超过两个小时）的是黄子华。黄子华为香港栋笃笑祖师，并亲手带领第二位栋笃笑人物张达明进入 [栋笃舞台]。有人认为，栋笃笑对中国来说不是一种新的表演方式，而只是 [单口相声]。虽然这样理解或者分析并无不妥，可是相声和栋笃笑在侧重点跟表达手法上略有不同，[栋笃笑] 较 [单口相声] 更偏重与台下观众的互动性及随机应变的灵活性。现在香港流行的单人舞台讲话表演源于北美的 [Stand-up Comedy]，还是被称为栋笃笑比较恰当。"

宁静的一天

2009-09-06T22:26:00.003+08:00

昨天已经不太舒服了，再加上半夜回家又淋到雨，所以就有点要感冒的感觉。

睡到自然醒的时候已经日上三竿。今天我不打算出门，而是要窝在家里什么也不做. 整个下午就是在看书、看戏、看书、看戏。就这样懒到傍晚。

宁静的一天，好珍贵。

以前刚刚来到槟城工作的时候，我在Bukit Jambul Court 租了一间小公寓。在31楼，没什么好就只是夜景特别美。

Tell me WHY

2009-09-06T01:56:00.000+08:00

It is supposed to be a beautiful Saturday. Suppose to.

I woke up in the early morning and went for hiking at Bukit Jambul with my bro. The sun is bright, air is fresh and everything is so wonderful. What a good start of the day. But things started to go a little bit off track, when we try to explore another hiking path. Luckily at the end, we managed to get out from the jungle.

Then we headed to a nearby hawker stall for breakfast. I ordered a plate of economic bee hoon without chili. But the auntie gave me a plate of bee hoon, with chili sauce on it (argh…..)

We went back home then. I spent the rest of my morning time to settle the dusts in my room and the unwashed clothes (accumulated for a week). Just imagine how dusty my room was and how lazy I am in the past one week, I’d spent two hours time to clean it up =P

To keep up the good (and hardworking) mood, I headed to office at 2pm to finish some lab tests for my project. I spent almost 1.5 hours in the lab, but I just can’t get any test done. Because my board screwed up after few tests and it just died. I can’t do the code compilation/simulation either, because the software license in my PC and the lab PC are having problem. I’ve tried to access Siebel to update some customer issues, but I just can’t. The site is under maintenance. Tell me, why am I here?

So I called ah shiong and ah bee for a night out. We agreed to take a dinner together and then go for a movie. I went back home, took a bath and changed. I am supposed to pick up them at Air Hitam (I’m staying in Sungai Ara, Bayan Baru). Lesson learnt from one of the previous outings, I wouldn’t choose to take the GreenLane way to Air Hitam during Saturday evening time. Because the traffic was so so so terrible that time and I was stuck in the traffic jam for almost an hour. Therefore, I’ve choose to take the Relau way. But, who knows, there was a traffic jam there as well, without any reason (no accident, no car break-down). WHY????

At the end, I managed to pick up both of them and we headed to Gurney drive for dinner. We decided to have our dinner at Mr. Pot. After the dinner, we quickly rushed to GSC at Gurney Plaza but the tickets for Final destination are all sold out!!!! Else we have to wait until 11.40pm (Argh…..) So, we go for ‘Imagine that…’ Is a good movie though (luckily, else ah bee have to buy us supper =P).

After movie, of course I need to drop them back home before I go back to Sg. Ara. After I sent them back home, I have to drive back to Sg. Ara alone. I thought Costal way should be the fastest path at midnight, but I was wrong!!!! I should have remembered that Hari Raya is just around the corner and the police are extremely active during this period. They set road block and caused traffic jam. WHY WHY WHY!!!!!

Finally, I went through it after 20 mins jam. When I was about to reach home, it started to rain, VERY VERY heavily. And the most exciting fact is, I do not have umbrella in my car!!!! So I quickly parked my car and ran towards the gate of my house. Yes, I get wet. All wet. I took bath and sneezed for >50 times. Just right after I stepped out from my bathroom, I looked through the window and noticed that the rain stopped.

It is supposed to be a beautiful Saturday. Suppose to.

The making of... 月饼

2009-08-31T21:11:00.019+08:00

It’s holiday again. 回家要做什么呢？嘿嘿，这一次回家是有重要任务要做的。那就是……
做.月.饼。

这就是做月饼皮的料，主要是用很多很多的油、很多很多的糖、还有很多很多的面粉搓出来的。

这是莲蓉月饼的馅料，也是用很多很多的莲子和很多很多的油煮出来的。还有做金腿月饼的料，我忘记拍照了。不过，也是用很多很多的油、糖和几种不同的nuts做的。

这是做月饼的模，老妈引以为傲的collection。

刚刚从烤炉拿出来的月饼。

老妈在为月饼涂蛋黄。因为刚烤出来的月饼还需要与上一层蛋黄，然后再翻烤第二次。

完成品… 这是伍仁月饼，也称作‘金腿月饼’。

这是莲蓉月饼。

我们大概花了三个小时，做了大约四十个月饼。金腿和莲蓉料用完了，但是月饼皮还剩很多，我们就用来做‘公仔饼’。

这是我做的mini ‘公仔饼’。Cute，isn’t it?

老妈做的鱼。其实是鸳鸯鱼，因为它的身体一半比较浅色，一半比较深色。她说她是故意的，这才叫做创意。我说：“你不要乱乱讲。”

到底真相是什么呢？真相是，homemade的东西通常都没有quality control。所以有一些饼皮她放太多糖，就变成比较深色了。

老妈是个很专业的家庭主妇，兼‘Part Time’月饼师傅（每年只做一次来送给亲戚朋友），所以我们连包装也很讲究。

就像我刚才提到的，月饼是用很多很多的油、很多很多的粉、很多很多的糖弄出来的。所以，是很肥很肥的！！！

各位美女们，还是少吃为妙。因为，

一口月饼 = 油 + 粉 + 糖 + 还有很多让你发胖的东西！！！

唯美

2009-08-31T19:18:00.001+08:00

因为种种原因而不能够在一起的两个人
他只能陪她试婚纱，凝视着镜子里的美丽
然后任由她筹备着跟另一个男人的婚礼
两颗压抑的心，理性和感性地挣扎着

很唯美的一幕，我忍不住screenshot下来。
[From Gossip Girl]

Lenka

2009-08-16T11:52:00.004+08:00

最近的最爱，Lenka :) 她跟Taylor Swift 一样，唱歌很有型耶！

石头跟我都很爱的一首歌：

Lenka : Trouble Is A Friend

********************

Trouble will find you no mater where you go, oh oh.

No Matter if you're fast no matter if you're slow, oh oh.

The eye of the storm and the cry in the morn, oh oh.

Your fine for a while but then start to loose control.

He's there in the dark,

he's there in my heart,

he waits in the winds

he's gotta play a part.

Trouble is a friend,

yeah trouble is a friend of mine. oh oh!

Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh.

And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh.

He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh.

So don't forget as you ease on down the road.

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm.

I won't let him win, but im a sucker for his charm.

Trouble is a friend,

yeah trouble is a friend of mine. Oh oh!

Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel.

And how I try to make him leave; I try.

Oh Oh I try!

气死人

2009-08-11T21:50:00.002+08:00

我很不明白，为什么有些人那么惹人生气？我到底踩到哪一个地雷了？

Arggggghhhhh.....

A Gift from him

2009-08-09T21:46:00.006+08:00

谢天谢地，石头终于平安回来了。还带给我一份不便宜的礼物。突然间这么舍得花钱买礼物给我，真的很古怪，看来我得展开我的调查了...

不管怎样，我是真的很喜欢 \(^_^)/

怪人怪想法

2009-08-03T15:21:00.015+08:00

过几天是阿雄毕业的大日子，得好好为他准备礼物出席他的毕业典礼。该买些什么呢？我和樱桃想到头都大了。结果，在Gurney Plaza逛街的时候发现这个toilet roll cover，所以... 就一致裁定送这个给他。

厕纸跟‘米田共’永远都是好朋友，所以就买了两支‘米田共’造型的按摩棒，包成一束花。你看！多么高贵的‘米田共’啊... (痴线）

我们都很期待看到阿雄收到这礼物的表情。结果是这样...

我好像隐隐约约看到他额头有三条线--> (-_-)

石头讲，怪人永远都会有怪想法。我很纳闷，因为我不想变成怪人。但是看到身边站着也是很兴奋的英桃，我知道其实我这个怪人不寂寞。至少有另一个想法也是很怪的人陪伴。

冬菇 vs 蘑菇

2009-07-21T22:02:00.006+08:00

从前的从前，有两只很可怜的乌龟被石头买了下来。被人‘卖猪仔’已经很可怜了，更可怜的是石头把它们送了给我，因为我是个很不负责任的主人。

不知不觉就养了快五年了，是时候拍张照片吧？

一只叫冬菇。很懒，平时都不太爱动。但是很贪吃，有食物是爬得比兔子还要快（夸张）。常常把另一只龟的食物都吃光，好吃懒做的家伙。因为吃的比较多，所以很肥。

这只叫蘑菇。很小胆，但是动作比较快。什么时候都只会缩在龟壳里，真没用的家伙。食物常常都被冬菇吃光，长得比冬菇慢，可怜。

你们一定要争气好好的活下去（尽管我和老妈动常常忘了喂你们吃东西），因为我立志要把你们养成千年老龟。加油！！！

Full House

2009-07-13T18:59:00.038+08:00

我好久没有跟石头出去shopping了。逛街之前，先填饱肚子。我们的午餐，Serdang出名的酿豆腐和‘纸包鸡’。

去Mid Valley逛逛，看了Terminator。很不错，我觉得比Transformer2的storyline更精彩eh… （Transformer的粉丝千万不要打我）陪石头买鞋子，看看衣服。就这样走走逛逛的，一个下午的时间就过去了。晚餐时间，肚子饿了，石头说：“我带你去实现你两个月前的愿望。”

于是我就被拐带到Kelana Jaya的‘牛车水’这里，一家叫做Full House 的餐厅。某年某月某一天，某某人答应过我，会在我生日的时候来这里庆祝的。结果某某人飞去Papua New Guinea工作，一去就去了两个月，我就这样被某某人骗了。

说这间‘东西’是餐厅又有点怪，因为它其实也有在卖衣服和食品，食物只是它所贩卖的物品之一而已。That’s why we called it “Full House – Life Store and Cafe”。

可爱耶，我好想买回家。

摆着琳两满目又可爱的饰品的架子，除了价钱标的标签，还贴着很多很可爱的便条。好像那些饰品会说话那样，ka-wa-yi-neh…

要点菜了，我们想挥挥手叫侍应生拿Menu来，结果那位侍应生用想笑又不敢笑的表情，指一指一直都在桌子上摆着的‘杂志’。我看了看，明白了他的意思，然后故作镇定跟他示意说我们等一下才点餐。那一刻，心里的旁白就是：“walau-eh，做么Menu做到酱像杂志的… @#$%&**(%$@#%$^... ”。各位，这就是继Paddington House of Pancake的Menu后，我第二次见识到Menu原来可以做到那么不一样。（Paddington 的Menu像相簿，Full House的Menu像杂志）

‘杂志’的Content。

还大方的Share他们的料理食谱，真贴心。

整本‘杂志’都有可爱的漫画。

我点的Lavender Lemon topped with Lavender Flower，石头在喝着他的Mango Grape topped with Green Apple Jelly。

我吃的是Wasabi Fillet Fish，石头吃的是鸡（很明显），忘了叫什么了。反正就是好吃… 下次我还要来。

石头说，这个pose是他的同事教他摆的，死硬要我帮他拍下来。

我来模仿一下好了。

吃得太饱，在‘牛车水’到处走走。我遇到了一只很欠打的鸭子。

‘喂，不要以为你很红，就那么串。要打架是不是？’

哈哈，下次你如果看到有个白痴在街上跟一只鸭子吵架，那个人很有可能就是我。很好玩，我逼石头摆跟我一样的pose。

Coffee Story -- 黑咖啡 (Black Coffee)

2009-06-21T22:20:00.005+08:00

（Source from 百度）

黑咖啡 (Black Coffee), 又称「清咖啡」，香港俗称「斋啡」，我们应该叫它做kopi kosong。指用直接用咖啡豆烧制的咖啡，不加奶等会影响咖啡原味的饮用方式。

黑咖啡是不加任何修饰的咖啡，黑咖啡带来的是品味咖啡的原始感受。黑咖啡集合了咖啡香甘醇酸苦五味的特点，它原始而又粗犷，深邃而又耐人寻味。然而，我们对黑咖啡总是了解得太少，若即若离的距离让黑色的它备添神秘。其实，黑咖啡就在身边，爱上它，你就一定会找到它。

黑咖啡强调咖啡本身的香味。香味是咖啡品质的生命，也最能表现咖啡生产过程和烘焙技术。生产地的气候、品种、精制处理、收成、储藏、消费国的烘焙技术是否适当等，都是决定咖啡豆香味的条件。苦是黑咖啡的基本味道，有强弱和质地的区别，生豆只含极微量的苦味成份，其后由烘焙造成的糖份、一部分的淀粉、纤维质的焦糖化及炭化，才产生出咖啡最具象征性的苦味。黑咖啡也有酸味，适当的热作用产生适度的酸味，将可使咖啡的味道更佳，让人觉得更有深度。黑咖啡的甜味，与苦味呈表里一体关系，所以清爽的上等黑咖啡口味定带有甜味。

黑咖啡可以减肥哦。一杯100克的黑咖啡只有2.55千卡的熱量。所以餐后喝杯黑咖啡，就能有效地分解脂肪。

Coffee Story -- 咖啡豆的加工

2009-06-21T13:05:00.008+08:00

我最近很爱喝咖啡。无聊的时候就上网闲逛，找找有关咖啡的故事。很有趣，所以我觉得要post上来给大家看看。

（Source from 百度）

去皮，发酵，干燥

利用机械或人手方式将果皮和大多数的果肉去除。藉由发酵去除果核外的黏液跟薄膜，由于发酵的时间长短会影响咖啡的风味，因此每家厂商都有各自的发酵时间。干燥法主要分成天然日晒及自然风干。过高的含水量容易造成咖啡生豆发霉及长虫。含水量过高也会造成咖啡的酸度偏高。

烘焙

咖啡生豆透过烘焙，可以释放出咖啡特殊的香味，每一颗咖啡豆蘊藏其香味、酸味、甘甜、苦味，如何淋漓尽致的释放出來则观其烘焙的火候，从淡而无味的生豆，到杯中余味无穷的香醇，烘焙--是每一颗咖啡豆漫长的旅行中，勾画性格、孕育香味极重要的一個步骤。

咖啡豆在这场长约一二十分钟（与温度成反比）、温度高达摄氏两百多度，在与火热切对话的过程中，历经多次化学变化，发出一次爆、二次爆，如爆米花似的响声，并丧失水分。从生豆、浅焙、中焙到深焙，水分一次次释放，重量减轻，体积却慢慢膨胀鼓起，咖啡豆的颜色加深，芬芳的油质逐渐释放出來，质地也变得爽脆。在生豆中，蘊涵大量的氯酸，随着烘焙的过程，氯酸会逐渐消失，释放出令人熟悉而愉悅的水果酸，如醋酸、柠檬酸和葡萄酒中所含的苹果酸，烘焙恰倒好处的将这些美好的酸味适度的呈现出來。

浅焙 - 當豆子迸发出第一声轻响，体积同时膨胀，颜色转变为可口的肉桂色。酸性主导了浅焙豆子的风味，质感和口感都尚未充分发挥，一般做为罐装咖啡使用。

中焙 - 咖啡豆呈现出优雅的褐色。这种烘焙的方法又叫city roast。中焙能保存咖啡豆的原味，又可适度释放芳香，因此牙买加的蓝山、哥伦比亚、巴西等单品咖啡，多选择这种烘焙方法。在20分钟时，油脂开始浮出表面，豆子被烈火烫烧出油亮的深褐色，称为full-city roast, 这时咖啡的酸、甜、苦味达到最完美的平衡点，咖啡豆的性格也被线条分明的刻画出来。

深焙 - 咖啡豆的颜色越深，风味也更甘甜香醇，这时油脂已化为焦糖，苦尽回甘，余味无穷，最适合酝酿强劲的意大利Espresso，所以又称为意式烘焙法。适度的烘焙赋予咖啡豆生命，化为入口时耐人寻味的酸甜苦澀。对咖啡因敏感的人，不妨选用深焙的豆子，因为在深焙的过程中，咖啡因会慢慢的逸失，所以越深焙的豆子，其咖啡因的含量越是低，一杯Espresso中的咖啡因含量，只有其他中焙咖啡的一半，一般Espresso咖啡容量少，若等同一般咖啡的容量時咖啡因含又高了很多。

Uncle的第一次

2009-06-04T22:13:00.001+08:00

刚放工，已经快九点了。
妹妹打电话来：“喂，你快点on你的MSN。你老爸学用MSN，要跟你chat。”

我于是就上线，看看这个老人家第一次学年轻人chat要跟我讲些什么。

我才跟他chat了几句，妹妹又打电话来：“我跟你讲，不要nudge他，他不会nudge回你的啦！”

“okok…”

然后又跟他chat了几句，妹妹又打电话来：“我跟你讲，不要type那么快，他看不及、打字又慢，来不及看完你的句子、回答你。”

“okok…”

再chat多几句，又打来：“不要用short form!!!”

“haih…..”

只愿他平安回来

2009-06-03T22:03:00.004+08:00

摄于2007年5月28日，浮罗交怡岛。

我和一位发型师的缘分

2009-05-31T21:25:00.005+08:00

两年前刚来槟城工作，经朋友介绍一间在Krystal Point的Salon剪头发。还记得第一次去的时候，我一坐下就有一位美女理发师走过来serve我，边跟我聊天边研究我的头发。

“我要弄卷头发，有波浪的。”
“不要啦，你的脸型不适合卷头发。我帮你剪直的发型比较衬你。”

然后就说什么也不肯帮我弄卷，就真的只肯帮我剪头发。谁都知道对理发师来讲，劝顾客弄卷啦、离子烫啦，都是比剪头发赚多一点钱的东西。那是我跟Jessie第一次的相识，只觉得这个理发师很坦白。至少不是那种为了要赚我多一点钱而随便投我所好帮我乱弄头发。

我第二次光顾的时候，刚好那时候流行Bob发型，我就说：“我要剪像Victoria Beckham那种Bob头。”

“不行，你的头形太扁、头发太薄。不如你剪….”然后到最后我还是剪不到Bob头。

尽管我每次都会跟朋友投诉说这个理发师很不听我话，但是从此以后，接下来在槟城工作的两年，我就只光顾这间Salon、只给Jessie弄我的头发。Jessie跟我大概差不多年纪，个性坦白又跟我很聊得来。一直以来在之前的Salon剪头发或者弄头发的过程我都会焦虑不安，从来都不可能会像别人那样悠哉游哉的变弄头发边翻杂志，因为我很没有信心弄了出来的结果会是怎么样。但是给Jessie弄的话不知道为什么会很放心，我可以边跟她聊天边看杂志，有一次还睡着了。

今天从KL回来槟城，其实很累了。但是不知道为什么突然有灵感想要剪头发，于是就驾车赶到这间Salon，想在它打烊之前来个quick cut。

我到Salon时已经是傍晚7pm了，看看店门挂着的牌匾写着Sunday 10am – 8pm，我想Jessie应该还没走吧。但是我踏入Salon时候，其他正在忙的发型师都用一种有点怪的笑容看着我。他们招呼我坐下后，接着Jessie就跑出来，像往常一样跟我聊聊头发要怎样剪啦、怎样弄啦。过后她在帮我洗头的时候用一种神秘兮兮的语气在我耳边小声地说：

“你来得真是合时，我今天last day。我要去学美容，所以辞职不在这里做了。刚才打算收拾完东西早一点走，我们下午有讲起你，不知道我走了以后你还会不会来光顾。谁知道现在快打烊的时候，他们告诉我你真的来了。也好，你可以是我在这个发廊的最后一个顾客。”

她今天剪得特别慢，大概两个小时才剪好，还教我怎样做不一样的造型。尽管Salon的打烊时间是8pm，但是她弄到9pm才弄完。我走之前她就静悄悄的跟我交换电话号码：“交个朋友。要弄头发可以call我，我帮你弄算你便宜一点。”

我们的交情其实并没有很深，只是发型师和顾客的关系。但是我只能说我跟她好像还真的有那么一点缘分。人与人之间，缘分这东西真的很奇妙。要遇到的，始终会遇到。注定遇不到的，怎样也遇不到。要是刚才我不是突然改变主意来剪头发，而是照原订计划回家睡觉的话，她就会照她自己的原订计划收拾完东西早点下班，不会在她last day的这一天帮我剪头发，我也不会是她最后一个顾客。我们就依然是发型师和顾客的关系，然后从此不再联络，各自过各自的生活。

哈，好奇怪的感觉。但是也好，我多了一位朋友。

心里的电影院

2009-05-24T21:37:00.019+08:00

我相信每个人的心中都有个电影院，放映的都是自己喜欢的电影。我心里的电影院有个电影排行榜，偶尔心情不好的时候都会依次序放映。

**心动**

很久了，大概是我在中三时候看过的一部电影，但至今在我心里都是排在第一名。我其实不是很爱梁咏琪，对张艾嘉也没什么特别喜好。只是故事真的很动人... 一种难以形容的感觉，那是一种飘浮不定的快乐、心酸的痛。

如果有一个人不管在你人生哪一个阶段，一直住在你的心里，就是为了要泛起重逢那一刻的涟漪，那是一种可遇不可求的缘份。

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Story (Source: http://baike.baidu.com/view/647269.htm)

導演 Cheryl（張艾嘉飾）要拍一部關於初戀的故事，找了編劇（蘇永康飾）一起談劇本。故事的開始是一九七七年，女主角小柔（梁詠琪飾）只有十七歲，還在一間女校唸書。男主角浩君（金城武飾）已經十九歲，去年大學沒考上，現在在家中自修準備再一次衝刺，但他，花最多時間卻在彈吉他上面，直到浩君第一次見到小柔，那一次小柔並不知道。透過一個音樂行的玻璃櫥窗，浩君看到她不小心撞到玻櫥窗上，卻假裝沒事，直至知道沒人看到，又痛得捂著頭。她這一個清晰的印象，令浩君第二次真的面對小柔時，居然撒了一個謊─介紹身邊的女伴是他的表妹。卻也因為這個被全世界都看穿的謊，使小柔憑她女性的直覺，知道將會有事情發生。第三次見面是在一群愛玩音樂的男孩子練歌時，他們二人終於說話了，而且是小柔主動的。因此浩君認為這一段戀情是小柔追他的，只是浩君後來居上。二人愛得徹底、直接，昏天黑地，十七歲的愛是從不修飾的。

二人除了沒有發生肉體關係之外，其他全部付出。小柔身邊的好朋友陳莉（莫文蔚飾），穿插在這對戀人之間，是小柔傾訴的對象。有時是潑冷水的，但也是小柔向家中撒謊的好藉口，當然更是他和浩君最適當的傳話筒。直到有一個晚上，浩君和小柔捨不得分手回家，只想一起共渡，他倆最後居然是穿著整齊相擁，聽著隔壁旅館房間男女做愛呻吟聲直到天亮。二人笑著衝出旅館，這一夜太美妙了！但這一夜卻也成為二人永遠分手的起因。大人永遠都認為小孩子不懂得什麼是愛情，等大了再談愛吧！思想複雜的大人怎麼可能了解單純的情感是如紋身般的印在心上。但大人的權威無上，最終為兩小無知的愛情自動畫上了一個休止符。

導演 CHERYL 告訴編劇，在同一時候陳莉向小柔表示了她的愛意，小柔一時無法面對這突然而來的同性愛意，竟然一巴刷到陳莉的臉上，那一天小柔同時失去兩個她心愛的人。編劇有些愕然這故事的發展。

若干年後，浩君早已放棄考大學的念頭到了日本，去尋找另一個生活的開始。二十五歲的他在旅行社　找到自己能力可以勝任的工作，為華人旅行團做翻譯和導遊。即使工作逐漸成為他生命的一部份，沒有放棄的依然是他的吉他。或許那不只是一份愛好，還是份默默的懷念。當初為了需要金錢而典當了的吉他，後來又贖了回來，也帶到日本。就算買了新的，這一把是捨不得丟棄的。
在一個忙碌混亂的下午，小柔的面孔突然出現在浩君面前。兩個人都愕住了。沒有想到的是，幻想過數千次的重逢，竟然是這樣。更沒有想到的，是依然未變的心動。

成長了的小柔，已是香港一家時裝公司的買手，經常四出辦貨，東京只不過是其中一站。但當二人走在一起，似乎又回到少年時期，祇是這一次，二人沒有任何考慮就做了當年沒有做的事。即使浩君坦誠的告訴小柔他已結婚，而小柔自己也不停有新男朋友，他們還是相信，這份愛是不變的。浩君和小柔就是浩君和小柔，與別人無關，也不是什麼忠誠不忠誠。是任性的，是不負責任的。故事寫到這　，編劇終於感覺到這個故事和導演 CHERYL 有關，他好奇的想知道故事如何發展下去。

二人依然天各一方，繼續自己的生活。只要小柔沒有要求浩君離婚，或有任何巨大的改變，小柔似乎滿意目前的狀況，直至有一天，浩君回到香港，拿著戒指向她求婚時，這段感情才受到最大的考驗。其實受到最大考驗的是導演 CHERYL，從整個故事發展中，她一點一滴的回到自己的過去，發現了自己多少無心之失，還有浩君為自己做了許多當年見不到的犧牲和放棄。此時，浩君由日本來了一份傳真， CHERYL 終於勇敢的到了日本去面對這一份真實的往事，和那些浩君從未告訴她的事情…

這個劇本到底拍了沒有？…並不重要。在 CHERYL 心中，它依然是最美麗的戀情，因為，它發生在十七歲…那時的愛是簡單而沒有雜質的。誰說小孩子不懂愛情呢？

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**伤城**

2006年上映，比较近期的电影。这部电影看了让我很唏嘘。很多人过了大半生，还不知道自己要的是什么。

繁华的城市，往往都有很多故事。复杂的人生，往往都有很多无奈。一个伤心的城市，住着一群伤心的人，有着伤心的故事。

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Story (Source: http://baike.baidu.com/view/427081.htm)

城市像酒，酒色味诱人，入口苦涩。爱酒的人说苦尽甘来，迷恋酒后的刺激、温柔；不爱酒的人就怕这点苦，但仍苦苦地呷，因为他们一样迷恋那刺激、温柔。

刘正熙说：酒好喝的地方在于它难喝。
丘建邦从来不喝酒。

2003年平安夜，凶杀组探员丘建邦(金城武饰)拘捕了一个连环奸杀犯。圣诞日的早上回到家中，发现Rachel在床上自杀身亡，Rachel是他的女友。验尸后，丘建邦方知她刚刚怀有两个多身孕。之后，丘建邦转行当了三年私家侦探，同时他变成一个酒鬼。

2006年，丘建邦最好的朋友，乒乓球桌上最好的对手、最信赖的上司凶杀组总督察刘正熙(梁朝伟饰)谋杀了他太太周淑珍(徐静蕾饰)的父亲——隐形富豪周元胜。干了凶杀组头目多年，设计这次谋杀案当然是天衣无缝。刘正熙刻意留下的每一个证据，将矛头指向两名无业游民陈伟强、黄斌。案发后一星期，陈伟强和黄明伏尸西贡村屋，证据显示二人分赃不均、自相残杀，警方及律政署迅速结案。

案情发展尽在刘正熙计算之中，但逍遥法外的他没算过，周淑珍会因一个无谓的原因，对这案件产生怀疑；没有算过，淑珍找了丘建邦调查这案；更没算过，自己一直被一个神秘人监视。刘正熙没有算过，人生是无法计算的；既是无法计算，唯有见步行步。

尽管酗酒的情况十分严重，与新女友细凤(舒淇饰)的关系扑朔迷离，但对凶案，丘建邦却是众人皆醉我独醒，他一步一步迫向事实的真相。刘正熙一方面将计划变奏，将一切不利自己的疑点清除得一干二净，一方面追寻神秘人的真正身份，同时将周淑珍推向精神崩溃的边缘，继而把未完的计划实行下去。

成功将丘建邦带向推理的死角，擒下神秘人。刘正熙再一次布下无懈可击的陷阱杀周淑珍，谋财害命，夺取金家三亿产业，计划尽在他计算之中。周淑珍性命危殆，但刘正熙再一次计算错误，他没算过自己对周淑珍付出了真感情。

感情上的失误，令案情急转直下，丘建邦发现凶手身份时，方知真相之中另藏真相，刘正熙和陈伟强有着千丝万缕的关系。当丘建邦对刘正熙道出真相之际，刘正熙另一杀局，又再展开。他杀了自己。

故事始终在阴霾的天空下，也许这也正是刘正熙内心世界的“ 伤城”，曾经他失去了一切，包括身份，但是当他复仇之后，他却发现失去了自己的最爱，曾经失去的已经不再回来，但是现在他却又让他自己失去了最后的幸福——一个爱他的妻子，他唯有离开，和妻子去另一个世界，重新开始。

其实真正的伤城不在现实中，而在我们心里，只有心告别了伤城，才会永远离开伤城。

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**薰衣草**

2001年，我中五时上映的一部电影。喜欢的原因很简单，就是希望有一天会有个那么帅的天使掉在我家的天台 :P

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Story(Source: http://baike.baidu.com/view/4945.htm)

Athena（陈慧琳饰演）28岁，是一间位于中环的香薰治疗班的导师，外表玲珑幽冷，内心却是充满丰富情感。Athena住在Soho区某座正在装修翻新的小唐楼内，左邻右舍都是千奇百怪的专业人士，每天油漆工人上上下下与Athena插身而过，Athena总是视若无赌；上班下班，他们有他们忙碌，她也有她的落寞，虽然Athena的工作充满了芬香，私底下的生活却有如岩兰草般的枯燥无味，每天下班必然是到洗衣店取衣，买一个气球，然后回家煮面、洗碗、泡香薰浴、开著电视带眼罩上床睡觉、忽然起床在气球上写几个字，然后推开窗户，让气球飞上天窗，每天如此。

直到有一天，她在家里泡著香薰浴时，天台上忽然跌下一只白色庞然大物，Athena心生害怕，用铁笼困著这只白色怪物观察了三天，才发现他真的是个天使（金城武饰演），只是折了翼，Athena便释放了天使为他疗伤，希望他有朝一日帮她带一份礼物返回天堂。天使不言不语、日渐消瘦，原来他需要别人的爱来维持生命，直到2000年的第一个日初，天堂圣门打开，才得重返天堂。

Athena决定带他出寻找“爱”，用背包遮住他的双翼，为他穿上一对旧皮鞋，天使第一次穿上皮鞋感觉新鲜有趣，与Athena到香薰班时，也广受女学员的欢迎，最开心的莫过于被邻居同志ChowChow带到同志店玩乐，不仅可饱餐一顿，又能捞得一笔外快。天使把赚来的钱全部买了皮鞋，一屋都是，每晚与它们开Party，偶而也会邀请Athena的一对红色高跟鞋同乐。

天使打探Athena何以闷闷不乐原因，原来Athena有个飞虎队男友，而在结婚当日男友因意外而死亡，从此郁郁寡欢，Athena无法释怀，一直尝试著调出那种曾经让感到安全、幸福、快乐的味道，可是一直调配不出来，天使决定帮助她。某日，天使因为被Athena丢掉旧皮鞋而大发脾气离家出走，原来一屋子的新鞋都敌不过一对旧皮鞋，天使初尝最爱的滋味，Athena从香薰班的过气舞女得到启示，到处寻找天使，终于在垃圾堆中把他翻了出来，回程途中，天使于电视上看见家乡梵蒂冈的消息，教宗准备在千禧年来临的子夜弥撒中，开启圣门。天使终于盼到重返天堂的日子了，他恳求Athena送他回梵蒂冈。

旅程本由香港出发，先停米兰再到罗马梵蒂冈，飞机上，天使因晕机而呕吐大作，结果在米兰改乘火车到梵蒂冈，火车上，天使生命显得日渐枯竭，原来他已经没有“爱”可维持生命，世纪最后一个黄昏来临，天使自知捱不到梵蒂冈了，忽然要Athena闭上眼睛，要带她去看一样东西。非洲的某个野生动物园，Athena闭上眼睛终于闻到她梦寐以求的气味，一种幸福快乐的气味，恍似一段浪漫温馨的回忆，Athena张开眼睛，以为可以看见她的男朋友，但眼前意是一只黑色大公牛，正在辽阔的大草原上自由快乐地奔驰，大草原上一棵树挂著无数写满句语的气球，Athena终于明白，流泪的脸上露出许久未见的笑容。

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你心里的电影院，到底放映着怎么样的电影呢？

p/s: 有一点必须澄清，I'm not a big fans of Takeshi，只是碰巧我喜欢的都有他主演而已...

健康快乐

2009-05-17T12:08:00.018+08:00

0509，又一年了。 25岁的生日过得很开心。以前的我很渴望热热闹闹的生日party。现在发现跟朋友聚在一起喝杯茶、聊天讲一些有的没的，或者是吃个饭谈谈自己的生活近况，用这种方式来过生日，竟然如此写意快乐。

生日礼物嘛，今年没收到什么特别名贵的。但都是独一无二的回忆。

一个在gasoline的晚餐和我们大家都觉得很好吃的蛋糕，with MMU的朋友。

Chong Yaw, Asa, Phei Phei, Ah Shiong, Doi, Ross and Bee...

一个在kim gary的午餐，还有secret recipe的cheesecake，with Altera的同事。

Alicia, Vern Yee, Jia Yee and Yvonne...

Lily, Gillian, Yong Yong...

See Siang, Sean, Michael...

一场在ZOUK的party，还有以前在MMU一起搞活动的朋友。那一晚，我玩得很开心、很尽兴。

我跟石头说，今年不要买礼物给我了。他就真的什么也没买，只给我一片蛋糕... 但是订了两张香港的来回机票（yeah!!! 我可以去香港shopping了!!）。

Eh, 少不了这个。英桃送的枕头。

可能因为我开始老了，对生活越来越有不一样的领悟。渐渐学会珍惜以前总是埋怨的东西。

以前觉得，每天早上总是要塞车上班、每天下午都会烦不知道要吃什么，每天晚上总会想起明天还有很多工作没完成… 总是觉得为什么我的生活一定要这样过。

现在看来，原来那只是生活一部分。我其实是有能力，把所有负能量赶走，让自己活得快乐。原来自己是那么实实在在的活着。

人一天一天的长大、‘健康’‘快乐’变的越来越难。

今年我只要答应自己两件事情：
第一件是照顾自己健康，也要照顾家人的健康
第二件是要珍惜，学会享受生命的每一刻。

I luv GUCCI

2009-05-06T20:56:00.012+08:00

在生之年一定要搜罗这些包包！！！加油！！！
但是好贵... 太贵了...

** 五月憩园 **

矛盾

放生

大日子

不酷的我，不哭

In time

3 stars for Yin Mei!

The world of misunderstanding

不值得

:(

好伟大的梦想

活该

到底追求什么？

死性不改的三个人

What hurt the most

I wish I am a super girl

我愿意

So hard to hold back

Give me up again

Attitude . 态度 .

Just kidding...

Going crazy, soon

超人不会飞

In the end, who stays?

不用担心，有faiko在

Miss you, hate you too

Nothing is worse than knowing you're holding back

I don’t need a Tiffanny

Maybe, Someday, We will figure all this out

What am I doing lately...

Vibrato...

Love and forgiveness

My bad habits

一首歌的时间

自由的味道

在我说愿意之前

我爱故我在 ~陶子

Please, go away.

迷路

致命伤

When should we say good bye?

What will happen if Newton is wrong?

Money, the monkey

More than enough

A secret from Victoria!

How did I spend my 26th birthday

Sushi making

They try to pull me away, but they don't know the truth

I am not Okay

My dad is a kid

Unknown state

W.H.Y.

Beautiful Mess

醉

我并不需要永远

The complication

黄子华，太厉害了

矛盾

The weekend project

你到底懂不懂

The materialistic me

Part of me

I miss Cyberia A2-1-10

So near, yet so far

NaRaYa, for everyone

I hate this

Direction

Crazy friends

害怕

Control me?

脱轨

小叮铛

人海茫茫

Read

7-11和微波炉的魔法

地上的星光

选择题

The Sweet Escape – 欲望城市

The Sweet Escape – 小姐，哩个地球仲要转架 !

The Sweet Escape - Let's go!

五月憩园